author's wife Becky and their son Jon Alex

“What if he has an autistic moment in the middle of the store and people stare?”

“What if his vocal stimming and rocking in his chair disrupt the others?”

“What if it’s crowded and I’m trying to push a wheelchair and a shopping cart at the same time?”

“What if all the handicapped parking places are already taken?”

My wife was debating whether to engage in a game of Walmart Roulette with our son.

Normally she tries to avoid places like Walmart when she has our son with profound special needs accompanying her. But this time, the items she needed required a trip to the superstore here in our small town.

Fear was whispering in her ear though, and doubts were slipping in through the unlocked door to her heart. Taking a child with autism and cerebral palsy into such an environment would require staring down the coward within.

Navigating my son’s wheelchair and a shopping cart simultaneously with the skill of a NASCAR driver, she made her way down the narrow, packed aisles.

That’s when she saw them.

Two developmentally disabled young adults, with their caregivers, were in the produce department.

As she passed by, one of the young men began to wave and gesture towards her. He approached her and my son, trying to communicate. Garbled nonsensical words and sounds gushed forth as the young man gesticulated wildly. His caregiver approached him from behind and tried to explain and apologize.

My wife waved the caregiver off at the pass and flashed him an “It’s OK, I’m safe” motion. For the next couple of moments she engaged and interacted with this intellectually-challenged young man as if they were lifelong friends.

“He is trying to tell you he likes fireworks and wants to know if your son likes fireworks as well,” explained the caregiver, pointing to my own teenage son in his wheelchair.

Soon, Becky moved on to finish her shopping and waited in one of the checkout lines. As she moved steadily closer to the Holy Grail of finally paying for her items and exiting the store, a moment ordained in heaven unfurled right at the counter.

The challenged young man and his caregiver were across the aisle from her, checking out with a different cashier. The young man made eye contact with Becky and began to wave.

As she waved back and flashed him that dazzling smile I first noticed 24 years ago, he left his caregiver’s side and walked over to where Becky and Jon Alex were.

He stopped right in front of my wife and gave her a big, yet tender hug, gingerly wrapping his arms around her and just holding her for a second.

No doubt the moment had been God-breathed, God-inspired and God-ordained. Sitting in the car, tears in her eyes, Becky thanked God for that moment.

A moment where fear was trounced, the coward within defeated and where grace was allowed to not only abound but to triumphantly be displayed.

“I needed that moment,” she would tell me later. “That was God’s gift to me. If I had let the fear win, I would have missed something beautiful.”

She did need that moment. But she was only partly right.

We all needed that moment.

The young man needed it. His caregiver needed it. The cashier needed it. Everyone in the store who witnessed the encounter needed it.

That was a gift to all of us.

 A masterpiece.

Sometimes, you’ll find a masterpiece — even at Walmart.

Becky with her son Jon Alex

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I’ve been saving for our family to go to Disney World in Orlando for years. So I decided in November 2013 that is was time to finally plan it. My partner’s mom and her husband gave us their points on their Disney timeshare and booked us at Disney’s Animal Kingdom Lodge overlooking the savanna. It wasn’t just any room – it was a beautiful two bedroom suite.

I did everything I could to prepare our son with autism for the trip. We even went to the airport on a tour for kids with autism and explored the plane a month early.

Fast-forward to the day of take-off. We get on the plane, and as it backs out on the runway, our son completely and utterly loses it. My partner was sitting next to him, with a gentleman in the aisle seat, while I sat behind them with our other two kids. I had to change places with that gentleman to help my partner with our son, who shrieked loud enough for the whole plane to hear, tried to climb over the seats in front of him. He just wanted to escape, and there was no place to go. This lasted for around a half hour. It was awful — one of the worst experiences we’ve ever had with him. By the time it was done, the three of us were a sweaty mess with adrenaline coursing through our systems.

Honestly, I wouldn’t have blamed the people around us for being irritated. Honestly, I’d expect some people to be judgmental. But no one was.

A lady sitting near me asked if there was anything she could do and told us we were doing a great job with him. She even gave us a salad she’d bought in the airport for an outrageous amount of money and insisted we take it. I cried; I didn’t expect anyone to see how we were trying to comfort him and get him to be OK and restrain  without hurting him. It was hard, it was awful, it was loud, and someone saw through it all to the love and care we were using with him.

When we landed, the people behind us weren’t judgmental but kind. The gentleman I traded places even stated that he had to be sedated to fly or he’d feel inclined to do what my son had been doing.

I never expected people to understand and care like that. In fact, as I type this, I have tears running down my face. That was one of the best gifts I’ve ever received – the kindness and caring of strangers.

Family at Disney Land

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Baby KerryDear Mom and Dad,

I know it’s breaking your heart to see me as I am now. Most of the kids we know are starting to talk while I’m just making sounds. I’m lashing out because I’m struggling. I can’t communicate my needs, and things are just not going the way I wish they would. I scream and fight with you every time you try and bathe me because I can’t stand the feeling of water. I cringe anytime I hear thunder, and I don’t like to be touched because of my sensory issues. Even now, as we make all the adorable videos of me dressed up as one of the best looking toddlers of all time, I know things aren’t easy, and we don’t know what my future has in store.

I want to tell you, though, to keep fighting for me and believing in me because without you both — my best advocates — I’m not going to be the person I am today. There’s hope, and you both play a huge part in that. Things are going to get better, and without you that wouldn’t be possible.  

At 2 and a half, I’m going to say my first words, and at 4 you’re going to find out from a doctor that I have something called autism. In 1992, it will be something you would have only heard from some of the leading experts in the field and from the 1988 movie “Rain Man.” The road now is going to be difficult, but we’re going to get through it together. 

Supports are going to be difficult to come by. The numbers of autism are 1 in 1000 right now and so many people still don’t understand. Life is going to be difficult. Challenges are coming. But here’s why you should fight through the challenges…

By fighting for me every day and helping me go through occupational, physical and speech therapy for the next 16 years, while giving me support at home and in school, I’m going to grow into an adult who is a national motivational speaker and gives talks about autism across the country.

Because if you fight for me right now and never give up, not only will I be that speaker but I’ll have the opportunity to write an Amazon Best Seller, consult for a major motion picture that makes 30 million dollars, and be someone who gives you love every single day. I will grow into an adult who embraces affection.


I hope for any parent who reads this letter — coming from a now 26-year-old adult on the autism spectrum — that you never give up on your loved ones. The autism spectrum is wide and everyone’s journey is going to be slightly different. Become an advocate because by doing what you’re doing now, you not only give hope to your loved ones but you give hope to the autism community. We’re learning more and more about autism every day and more and more answers are coming to help our community progress.

Most important, I hope you take this letter as a sign that all parents of children on the autism spectrum can make a difference. Some days are going to be more difficult than others, but just know that you’re never alone in this community. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m just one message away if you click on my Mighty author page.

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I was tired, hurried, frustrated and ready to just go home. My husband, John, was pushing our son, Mareto, in the cart as fast as he could to leave the store before the meltdown got worse. We were frantically trying to open up a cereal bar to stem the tears. Our daughter, Arsema, was strapped to my chest in the ergo carrier watching it all through wide eyes. Sweat beads were forming on my forehead, caused in part by my embarrassment but mostly from the heat and amount of energy I was exerting by running through Trader Joe’s with my 18 pound baby strapped to my chest and my toddler screaming behind me.

I sure didn’t feel like I was going to be in the running for any mom of the year awards. I felt like a hot mess. In fact, I was sincerely hoping no one was looking at us too closely… that somehow we were invisible to the people bustling around us. It was chaotic, exhausting and an unfortunately all-too-common experience for us.

Our family doesn’t exactly blend in with the wallpaper. Not only are we two white parents with a brown son and daughter (something that causes enough stares and questions all by itself), but our son has noticeable developmental delays and different behaviors because of autism, and our daughter has missing and webbed digits. In other words, when we all go out together, we stand out. Usually I don’t mind, and often I love it. My children are beautiful, and so is our story.

Sometimes though, on the days when we’re far from having it together, I do mind. Those days I just want to blend in with the crowd and hide far away from the curious stares. Some days I get tired of it all and just want to be a family — not the adoptive family, not the family with special needs children, not the unique family — just a family. This was one of those days.

I was close to tears as John took Mareto to put the cart away. I rushed through the doors with Arsema on my chest to get to the car as quickly as possible when a voice behind me slowed my steps.

“Ma’am!” she called out. I slowed, hoping and praying she wasn’t talking to me.

“Ma’am!” I stopped and turned to find a young woman rushing toward me. A bright smile covered her face, and I immediately noticed her beautiful black curls, just like the black curls snuggled on my chest, tickling my chin. Recognizing her shirt, I realized she worked there and assumed I must have dropped something. I looked at her, holding back my tears, waiting.

“I just wanted you to have this bouquet…” and I looked down to see the flowers in her hands. She quickly continued to explain…

“I was adopted as a baby, and it has been a wonderful thing. We need more families like yours.” I stared at her, stunned. Hadn’t she seen what a disaster we were in the store? Didn’t she see that we were barely able to keep it together? Didn’t she see what I felt were all my failures as a mom?

As she handed me the flowers I managed to choke out a thank you and tried to express that this meant the world to me. She patted my shoulder, told me my family was beautiful and walked back into the store.

My steps were much slower as I finally headed to the car with my arms full of flowers and tears that had spilled over onto my cheeks. On a day when I felt like we were the worst example of family… a day when I hoped no one noticed us… she did. But she didn’t see what I assumed everyone was seeing. She didn’t think what I assumed everyone was thinking. She saw beauty and love and hope and family. She thought we were wonderful and it made her smile.

family of four smiling

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I wish I had thought to get her name. I wish I could go back and tell her, two years later, what her gift continues to mean to me today. To the beautiful young woman in the parking lot of Trader Joe’s … thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are a treasure.

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Over the Christmas holiday we decided to enlist the help of one of our Christmas decorations to promote good behavior with our oldest son. It was an Elf-on-the-Shelf tactic, but we didn’t spring for one of those this year. Instead, we have a rustic snowman that holds two little blocks to countdown to Christmas.

It started out simple enough. Our oldest son was being a little crazy and not listening one day, and I told him he needed to behave or Santa would not bring him any presents. When we were kids, it was enough for our parents to say, “Santa sees everything you do, so be good!” That was not enough for Brennan, though. He asked inquisitively, “If I am here and Santa is at the North Pole, how will he know when I am being bad?”

Instead of taking the magical route, I went with the technological approach. Our children, after all, are pretty up to speed on the latest technology these days. So I informed him there was a webcam in the snowman’s head, and it would Skype a live video feed to Santa at the North Pole. This answer was sufficient for him, and for the most part we saw drastically improved behavior leading up to Christmas.

Our youngest son didn’t understand the concept of being good for an upcoming day. Everything for him is happening right now, and he can’t even really grasp the idea of tomorrow. Evan absolutely loved all of the Christmas decorations, but the concept was lost on him. He loved trying to take every single ornament off the tree and throwing the countdown snowman on the floor a hundred times a day.

This worried our oldest son… a lot. “Mom, Santa isn’t going to bring Evan any presents. He sees him throwing this snowman down over and over again. He’s going to be on the naughty list for sure!” I tried to explain to him that Evan doesn’t quite understand consequences yet and really doesn’t even know that throwing the snowman down is a bad thing; he’s just excited by all of the decorations and doesn’t quite know how to handle it. I assured him Santa would probably understand.

So this had become the normal conversation every time the snowman was tossed to the floor. Until one day our oldest instead said, “Oh, Evan, I know you don’t know why you do that, but Santa knows you have autism, so I hope you get presents anyways.”

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He then took it upon himself to prop up the snowman and explain Evan’s situation to Santa. It was one of the sweetest big brother moments I’ve ever seen — almost like he was defending his little brother’s case. “Santa, Evan just has autism; he doesn’t always know what he does, and he does stuff before he thinks most of the time.” For a just turned 4-year-old, I thought this was a rather accurate analysis.

He doesn’t overcomplicate Evan’s issues, but he frequently has to overcome boundaries that autism presents to our entire family. He tries to play with Evan and wants to engage, but Evan will misinterpret his signals and thinks he’s trying to take the toys he’s holding. So Brennan’s prompting for play is often met with him getting hit by a dinosaur. It doesn’t stop him from trying though, and he rejoices in Evan’s successes right along with my husband and me.

The innocence behind his questions and comments about his brother’s autism will melt your heart, and they’ve taught me more than I could ever read in any book. The other day, Evan said a wonderful sentence and asked outright to watch a specific movie, even naming the characters. Brennan jumped up and down and exclaimed “Evan, you know their names, you know about the movie, you’re starting to not have autism anymore!”

He sees his brother growing and overcoming challenges, and he hopes it will go away so he can play with his brother, and his brother will always respond when he talks to him. It’s his heart’s biggest wish, and it comes up frequently. He knows his brother is different, and he’s OK with that, but he wishes it wasn’t so hard for him to understand and communicate.

He asked for Power Rangers for Christmas and made an extensive list of toys, just like every other kid. But a few days before Christmas he walked up to the snowman and said “All I really want for Christmas is for Santa to take my brother’s autism to Never Never Land so he will never have to deal with it again.”

I know he wishes it was different. He asked if his sister will have autism when she’s 3 or if she will be able to understand him and play with him. It moves me that no matter how much he gets ignored or chased away, he will always ask Evan to play with him. There breakthrough moments — that little boy lives for those moments. He tolerates screaming at night and usually just turns over and covers his head. He tolerates having to give up a toy he had first if his brother desperately wants it and cannot be consoled. He usually stays calm when his brother destroys a city he’s made out of blocks. He may not completely understand, but he gets it and has matured a lot because of it.

His little baby sister will get it too. For right now she loves to watch her brother run in circles or rock and sing. Her face lights up when he talks to her. They seem to have their own little special connection. Evan doesn’t really understand soft touch or that he’s bigger than she is. He’s working on it, though. More than once he’s said sweetly, “Sit on baby’s lap,” as he tries to sit on her while she’s sitting in her bouncer chair. We’ve obviously had to watch him closely, more like you would handle a 1-year-old with a new baby. But he’s learning and will try to kiss her and hold her hand. He’s even shared his beloved dinosaurs with her on a few occasions, but then of course quickly took them back, claiming they are too big for her.

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I’m so grateful Evan has siblings who will always watch out for him. And with all of our moves I know the boys will always have a builtin best friend. I think his siblings probably understand him better than I ever will. Even though they may have to grow up a little faster to cope with the challenges our family faces, I know it’s building character and shaping them into individuals who will not only accept people’s differences but embrace them.

This post originally appeared on From the Bowels of Motherhood.

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We preach to our children be nice. Don’t call others names. Be kind. Be a friend. But how many of us actually practice what we preach? I know I’ve fallen short way too often.

The thought of being kind to others has been on my mind lately, not because of personal issues but because of a recent visit to the fair. Yes, I learned something from the county fair.

Every Saturday we go to lunch and do some form of an outing with Bob. For eight hours a day his life is governed by school and therapists and basically practicing life skills. So, on the weekend we like to relax and cut loose a little. We try to drag him out of his comfort zone (our home) and bring him into the “real world.”

This Saturday we made the trek to the county fair. I’m sure you know the type — basic ferris wheel, kiddie rides, games where you can win a fish or a stuffed animal, french fries and hot dogs and elephant ears, oh my!

I can’t lie. I was nervous. I didn’t know how it would go. I asked my Facebook family for prayers, good thoughts or even good juju. I was reaching.

We arrive at the fair. Bob sees letters — words — that excite him. “What does that say, Mommy?” he asks. I oblige and answer, holding his hand a little tighter as the music and the smells and the people seem to barrel towards us. The funny thing is, you never really even notice all these things until your life is touched with autism. Our senses are accosted daily and the fair, well let’s just say that’s a whole lot to take in — especially when you’re little and autistic.

We get to the ticket booth and the hubs proceeds to buy tickets. He looks at me and asks how many should I get? I don’t know — depends on if Bob can handle this or not. Oh, what the hell… get 50 tickets. This could work!

Bob gripped my hand tightly and said, “I wanna go home. I’m scared.”

I told him we would walk a little further and if he wanted to go home we would.

We didn’t have to leave. He loved it! He rode the roller coaster not once but three times. We rode the tilt-a-whirl. I thought I was going to vomit. He smiled the entire time. He even tried his hand at throwing ping pong balls into bowls to win a fish. He won not one but two fish.

We moved on to a motorcycle ride. Even though it was October and technically fall, it was still hot as hades in South Carolina. Evidently the South didn’t get the memo. While we were standing and waiting our turn, the ride attendant proceeded to complain about the heat. I tuned her out. My only concern was that Bob got on and off the ride safely. As Bob mounted the cycle, the attendant helped him and then she did the strangest thing. I felt like I was looking at something that wasn’t a reality… but it was. She proceeded to roll up my child’s sleeves.

Evidently, because she was hot, she assumed Bob was as well. I watched this woman. I watched this person proceed to do an act of kindness — just seamlessly giving some relief to a child. That one act, that simple thing she did, meant the world to me.

The fumbling of her fingers as she rolled his sleeves up, the kindness she bestowed upon my child, didn’t cost either of us a thing. It was what it was — an act of kindness, just a simple act of kindness.

I leave you with this. Try to do a simple act of kindness. I know I’m going to make a valiant effort. Because you never know when the one thing you do, that one act, will impact another person’s journey.


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