Why I'm No Longer Ashamed of My Stutter

I’ve stuttered ever since I was a kid. I grew up having really bad social anxiety, low self-esteem and depression because I didn’t see myself as valuable since society makes stuttering seem uncool.

Dariel Martin

I hid myself from people and didn’t have a lot of friends because I wouldn’t open my mouth to talk to them. For years, I hid my stutter by keeping my mouth shut, hoping no one would notice my speech impediment.

Throughout college, I only spoke to three people because I felt they wouldn’t pick on me, which they didn’t. I realized it’s not fair to myself nor to others to hide who I am because I’m a great person who plenty of people would love to hang around. There are great people whose lives I would love to be a part of, but I can’t join them if I don’t open myself up for them to get to know me.

I no longer hide from people. I’m a proud stutterer and openly let people know because I’m not ashamed any longer. 

I’ve been having a hard time getting a job because of my stutter, but it’s OK because I keep a positive spirit and believe a “yes” is on the way. I know there’s someone out there willing to look past my stutter and give me a fair chance for employment.

Recently, I graduated from college with a bachelor’s degree in English. Storytelling is a passion of mine because it’s an outlet that can touch many people. With that being said, I’m in the process of looking for a literary agent who can help me get my children’s picture book published, which is about encouraging kids to be confident with their stutter and letting them know they are more than their stutter.

I hope to inspire stutterers to be confident with who they are. It’s my job to pay it forward to help my fellow stutterers. When one reaches up, it’s only right to help the other up.

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