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To Those Who Feel Suicide Is the Only Way to Escape the Darkness

My dear child,

I know you are hurting. I know you are tired. I know the weight of the world is on your shoulders and you don’t feel like you can take it anymore.

I know because I’ve been there, too.

I know the pain you feel is real. Others may not understand, no. They may be quick to jump to conclusions or disregard your suffering as “all in your head.” They may not be able to wrap their own minds around the magnitude of your struggle. They may not believe the disease you have is real.

But my darling, I understand you. I’ve been there, too.

And I know the only thing that matters to you is relief. You want to escape the anguish, the darkness, the sadness. You scream into the silence, pleading for help, but you fear no one can hear you. Your ears ache for a response, but they hear none. You feel more alone than ever. You don’t know what to do and only one option seems sufficient enough to bring you peace.

But my child, you are mistaken.

You are more than the pain you’ve endured and the fear you’ve felt. You are more than your depression. You are more than your anxiety. You are more than your bipolar disorder, or your substance abuse or whatever it might be that you feel is defining you. You are more than that. Your illness does not define you. Your illness is not who you are.

You are human, wonderfully made and beautifully flawed. You are a unique creation, distinct and gifted. You may not realize how important you are to this world, but you are. You are loved and cherished whether you think so or not. You are wanted here. We want you to stay here. We want to help you. We want to see you thrive. You may not understand your potential, but we do.

One day you will shine as bright as the constellations in the night sky. You will be a force to be reckoned with. You will change the world.

So I ask of you one thing. Just one simple thing.

Hold on, even if you have to do so one day at a time. Just keep breathing. Don’t let your pain be victorious over you. You are a fighter and you can beat this. You are stronger than this.

Reach out to others. Find help and cherish it. Victory is easier when you have an army on your side. You will be surprised how willing others are to fight for you. So let them and don’t be ashamed.

At the end of every tunnel, there is a light. There is calm after every storm. Even the darkest of nights give way to sunrise. Hope is real. It will get better. You will overcome. We will overcome.

This I promise you, because I’ve been where you’ve been and I am still here today.

And when I wake up tomorrow, I want to see you here, too.

If you or someone you know needs help, visit our suicide prevention resources page.

If you need support right now, call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741.

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