The Signs I Missed That Meant I Was Struggling With an Eating Disorder


Editor’s note: If you live with an eating disorder, the following post could be potentially triggering. You can contact the Crisis Text Line by texting “NEDA” to 741-741.

I didn’t know it at the time, but I guess hiding countless bags of potato chips, chocolate snacks and drinks in my bedroom dressers was a sign.

I didn’t know it at the time, but I guess overeating large amounts of food, only to throw it up, was a sign of bulimia.

I didn’t know it at the time, but I guess becoming so fixated on the quality and purity of food, was me struggling with orthorexia nervosa.

I didn’t know it at the time, but I guess having bizarre eating rituals, distorted body image and obsessing over every bit of food going into my body, was a sign of anorexia.

I didn’t know.

No one noticed the crumbs on my bedroom floor.

No one noticed the long periods of time I would spend in the bathroom, hovering over the toilet.

No one noticed the shame and guilt I felt after eating something I felt I shouldn’t.

No one noticed I had an unhealthy obsession with eating healthy.

No one noticed I was starving myself.

No one noticed.

Please remember that eating disorders come in all colors, shapes and sizes. They do not at all discriminate.

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