It has been such a tough weekend. My father , who is 84, broke his hip. He needed surgery. I called him prior to surgery and told him I loved him and he did not return the sentiment. Barely spoke to me during the conversation. Then he had a heart attack next morning and had emergency cardiac cath. He is stable and in CCU. I am trying to forgive and move forward but my parents make it so difficult. After 60 years, they still blame me for being born and ruining their life. All I can do now is pray for him ….and try to continue to heal myself

Beautiful video and explanation on harvest.org/know-God/how-to-know-God

Hallelu Yah!

Listening to Whitney Houston I Love the Lord! So Grateful for God Grace and Mercy! #Depression #Anxiety

"No weapon formed against me shall remain!!" (the dessert song)

in the depth of selfharm God is comming to me by this song.

I’ve always been sensitive to pretty much everything, as a Highly Sensitive Person, and that includes the spiritual realm. I promise you that it’s real and evil exists beyond just the immoral actions and thoughts of human beings. If I hadn’t experienced the presence of evil in different situations in my past, I might not have taken this dream so seriously.

Last night, I had the most terrifying nightmare I’ve ever had. It started out as a pretty common scene: I was in bed next to my husband, and the kids had come into the room and were sleeping fitfully on the floor. Then, my fan started turning off and on sporadically, as though the electricity was flickering. First, I told the kids to be still, thinking, sleepily, that their movements were somehow causing it, then I felt a presence in the room, like an evil spirit hovering in the air. Suddenly, I felt like I couldn’t breathe and the evil spirit was trying to enter me through my mouth. I prayed earnestly for God’s protection, and the spirit backed off, but tried again. I continued praying, until I woke up, terrified, and begged for Ron to wake up and help me. “Something evil is trying to get inside me! It’s not a dream! Pray for me!” I cried out. Ron turned over, grabbed my hand and prayed God’s protection and peace over me. I prayed, too, “Jesus, you are my rock and my salvation, please protect me! Amen.” I spent the next several minutes trying to calm myself and convince myself that it really was “just” a dream. I don’t know that I’ll ever fully believe that. I’ve had too many encounters with the spiritual realm to believe that they couldn’t manipulate a dream to cover their shenanigans. All I know is that it felt SO real, and so incredibly terrifying. But, God protected me, as He always has, and my faith is stronger than ever, so whether or not I was truly under spiritual attack is a moot point. I tell you what, though. There’s a sin habit that I’ve been struggling to be done with that I’ve definitely renewed my battle against, because of this. I definitely don’t need ANY cracks in my relationship with God, after an experience like that!!

#SpiritualAttack
#Faith
#BPD
#nightmare

In 1 John 4:18 it says that “perfect love casteth out fear” and I got to see that come to fruition without me noticing until afterwards.

Music plays a huge role in my life and is one of my main coping tools for my mental illnesses. I created both “Depression’s Bane” & “Anxiety’s antidote” playlists quite awhile ago, but more recently I looked back on the songs that ended up on my anxiety playlist. Every song was about either God’s love for me or my wife’s. So whenever my anxiety is trying to overwhelm me I have those songs to remind me that I blessed to be loved and have no need to fear.

If you wish to check out my playlists in case some of the songs I picked would be helpful to you, you can find them on Apple Music or on my YouTube channel “Nerd,Patriot, Disciple”

#Anxiety #HisLoveNeverFails #AcuteStressDisorder #Music