When the 4th of July comes around. My body is on defense 😩 and i really wish it wasn't.. All due to the trauma that was caused every 4th of July.. For the past 13 years.. I really dont remember a holiday that was ever celebrated and turned out great!! And every holiday I wished it would've been GREAT!! No Matter what I did to try Do make it GREAT!! By the End of The Night!! I was always in tears.. Wondering Where I went wrong 🤔
But to understand Now that None of it Was My fault .. It Just Makes Me sad!! Because holidays are supposed to be fun and spent with your loved ones.. Yet I sit alone 😔 with all these feelings and Ptsd.. Why me!!