Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

I face #Loneliness and #Isolation as a person with a questionable immune system because of my #Cll (Chronic Lymphocytic Lymphoma) and because of the scapegoating and blame I receive from my two adult children who can't seem to be bothered to understand the #ComplexPTSD (#CPTSD ) I suffer as a result of horrible childhood trauma. I consider myself fortunate to have known two people who, unfortunately, suffer from Myasthenia Gravis. My loneliness and isolation both cause Complex PTSD triggering and are caused by it. When I find someone for whom I have some affection, I can become overly reliant on them for the connection I so desperately need. I experience(d) affection for both of these people, one deeply so and currently. Knowing that stress can trigger an MG Crisis, and that she is sometimes laid low for days and days by her treatments, I have had to learn to manage my triggers, which I'm not doing so well with right now. I'm doing better at keeping them to myself instead of aiming my desperation at her. Because of my affection for her, she is my teacher. In past relationships, which this currently is not, although the affection is mutual, I let my "CPTSD flag fly," and ended up inadvertently hurting people. I can't do that with her. If I do, no matter the form of her feelings for me, I will stress her out which could have negative impacts on her health. So, I'm hoping people with MG will find this and, by reading your posts, I will learn more about how difficult it is to maintain relationships of any kind when MG is involved. From others who care about someone with MG, I hope to listen and learn from your experience and, together, find ways to be good friends, lovers, partners, whatever. For those who care for people with MG, I hope to learn what I need to know to be helpful. I've done a lot of research into MG. It's exceedingly complex, with such varied and far-reaching implications on one's life. I want to be a good friend to this person I care so deeply for and starting a group here seems like a good way connect with others to keep myself in check. She has needs of her own and I want to be a help, not a hindrance, and in so doing, I will be healing myself of my CPTSD woundedness. Welcome. Introduce yourself. Say what you bring and how you'd like to benefit from being here.

I face #Loneliness and #Isolation as a person with a questionable immune system because of my #Cll (Chronic Lymphocytic Lymphoma) and because of the scapegoating and blame I receive from my two adult children who can't seem to be bothered to understand the #ComplexPTSD (#CPTSD ) I suffer as a result of horrible childhood trauma. I consider myself fortunate to have known two people who, unfortunately, suffer from Myasthenia Gravis. My loneliness and isolation both cause Complex PTSD triggering and are caused by it. When I find someone for whom I have some affection, I can become overly reliant on them for the connection I so desperately need. I experience(d) affection for both of these people, one deeply so and currently. Knowing that stress can trigger an MG Crisis, and that she is sometimes laid low for days and days by her treatments, I have had to learn to manage my triggers, which I'm not doing so well with right now. I'm doing better at keeping them to myself instead of aiming my desperation at her. Because of my affection for her, she is my teacher. In past relationships, which this currently is not, although the affection is mutual, I let my "CPTSD flag fly," and ended up inadvertently hurting people. I can't do that with her. If I do, no matter the form of her feelings for me, I will stress her out which could have negative impacts on her health. So, I'm hoping people with MG will find this and, by reading your posts, I will learn more about how difficult it is to maintain relationships of any kind when MG is involved. From others who care about someone with MG, I hope to listen and learn from your experience and, together, find ways to be good friends, lovers, partners, whatever. For those who care for people with MG, I hope to learn what I need to know to be helpful. I've done a lot of research into MG. It's exceedingly complex, with such varied and far-reaching implications on one's life. I want to be a good friend to this person I care so deeply for and starting a group here seems like a good way connect with others to keep myself in check. She has needs of her own and I want to be a help, not a hindrance, and in so doing, I will be healing myself of my CPTSD woundedness. Welcome. Introduce yourself. Say what you bring and how you'd like to benefit from being here.

Hello, I'm seeking your support.

I was recently laid off from a job that I truly enjoyed. Over the past 10 years, I have grappled with depression and anxiety, and I have been taking medication for the past 4 years.

Losing my job has significantly exacerbated my feelings of depression and anxiety, to the point where most days, I struggle to get out of bed. I find myself spending the whole day eating, watching Netflix, and mindlessly scrolling through social media.

My job was a beacon of hope for me, especially after it took me 3 years to find a job following a 7-year tenure at my previous workplace. Now, I feel hopeless about finding another job. I am so drained and disheartened that I can't even muster the energy to work on my resume and start applying again. I keep asking myself, "What's the point?"

Especially considering that I'm a 38-year-old single woman, the thought of failing at everything and never achieving anything in life keeps taunting me. How can I start over at this age with nothing to build on?

In any case, I was hoping that you could provide me with some ideas and recommendations for sustainable morning and nighttime routines that could assist me during this challenging period.

Thank you very much 🤍

#52SmallThings #MightyTogether
#Trauma #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ADHD #CPTSD #Fibromyalgia
#ChronicFatigue #CheckInWithMe #Grief #ChronicDepression #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder

Hello, I'm seeking your support.

I was recently laid off from a job that I truly enjoyed. Over the past 10 years, I have grappled with depression and anxiety, and I have been taking medication for the past 4 years.

Losing my job has significantly exacerbated my feelings of depression and anxiety, to the point where most days, I struggle to get out of bed. I find myself spending the whole day eating, watching Netflix, and mindlessly scrolling through social media.

My job was a beacon of hope for me, especially after it took me 3 years to find a job following a 7-year tenure at my previous workplace. Now, I feel hopeless about finding another job. I am so drained and disheartened that I can't even muster the energy to work on my resume and start applying again. I keep asking myself, "What's the point?"

Especially considering that I'm a 38-year-old single woman, the thought of failing at everything and never achieving anything in life keeps taunting me. How can I start over at this age with nothing to build on?

In any case, I was hoping that you could provide me with some ideas and recommendations for sustainable morning and nighttime routines that could assist me during this challenging period.

Thank you very much 🤍

#52SmallThings #MightyTogether
#Trauma #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ADHD #CPTSD #Fibromyalgia
#ChronicFatigue #CheckInWithMe #Grief #ChronicDepression #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder