I won't survive well in the world
I'm watching a show on TV. Seeing how people talk and interact flawlessly
My whole life I was controlled and abused so heavily I was not allowed any bodily autonomy, privacy, or agency. At 18 I was mentally a child in the way my mother groomed me into being, and yet she was shocked and angry when I wasn't "mature". She wanted control over me but wasn't aware of how that control would hurt me
As I am now at 24 I feel I can't talk to people and make mature conversation. I feel like such a burden and emotionally immature that maybe I shouldn't talk to people at all and embarrass myself with my traumatized self
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