As I’m slowly learning more about myself and the triggers I have due to anxiety I am beginning to realize I avoid conflict almost like it’s a disease. It’s to the point if I anticipate conflict coming I will get physically sick and begin to recite my defense and or apology until it’s all I can think about. Any minor conflict will leave me reeling for hours even if the conflict is resolved I am unable to not dwell on it. I apologize for things that aren’t my fault to appease people who aren’t even upset. How do I get past this, it’s not something that’s new I think I’ve dealt with it all my life only just now I am realizing how badly it affects me. I don’t want to fear life, I want to live happily but I am so afraid. #fearofconflict
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