2020 I have been betrayed by those I trusted the most and now I am constantly waiting on the next bad thing to happen or overanalyze everyone and everything they do because they have to have an ulterior motive to hurt me or make me look stupid, ect
#ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder
I am the type of person that finds the worst in every situation. I am constantly thinking of all the bad things that could happen if I did something, which in turn makes me not want to do anything! I stay at home because I am too afraid to go outside and face the world. I don’t drive because I have conjured up all of these horrifying scenarios that could possibly happen. I don’t go out and be around people because of the slight possibility that something bad will happen. I am constantly deciding against things because there is a chance that something could go wrong. I am so afraid of my own happiness because of the possibility that it will be taken away. I push people away because I am afraid they are going to leave me. Every single decision I make is out of fear. It is impossible for me to grow and get better when I let my fear control my life. I just don’t know how to make it stop... #Depression #FearOfEverything
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