So here goes nothing. I am not sure 🤔 how this might come out so I apologize before I get into it. I have BPD with psychosis PTSD and multiple personality disorder with manic depressive episode and depression. And in this time of my life it’s a big change so everything in my brain is going to leftfield and I guess I just want to get it off my chest so that I can process maybe?
So here it goes. I’m leaving a very toxic marriage of 12 years and I am scared. I been going through what if’s like crazy and been talking myself out. I just don’t know how to deal with all these overwhelming emotions.
I just graduated from DBT therapy and it saved my life. I am able to ask for help and I am able to do the skills. I just feel alone and scared and I know that ain’t true I have an amazing support system.
I know it is my f-Ed up brain telling new how this is all my fault and everyone is blaming me a judging me and my ex gets to keep everything and I have to give up it all to save myself. Like I told my therapist I know I am healthy one and I know I am the only one able with the strength to walk away.
I guess this is all rambling. So I guess a TIP skill and a body scan and bed. I leave Wednesday and these emotions have only gotten more intense. Good night thank you a head of time for reading
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