InnerThought

× " So When I Was Growing Up I Have Alway's Felt Unique/Diffrent.. I'm Quite And A Non-Talker And People Don't Like It... I Express Myself Very Diffrently Through My Writing / Poetry... I Don't Like Communicating Much Because Now People Will Cancel You If You Willfully Speak Your Mind And Not Play " The Sheep Game ".. If I Need To Really Call Someone When I Will... But I Do Perfer Texting.. If Someone Doesn't Have An Intresting Topic.. Then I Tune Them Out.. I'm Not Being Mean.. That's Just Me.. And Another Thing I Definitely Don't Like Attention Seeking.. So If Some Of You Thought My Coming Out Post's Was A Bit Too Much I'm Sorry... I'm So New To This Ok... Give Me Time.. I'm Straight I'm Just Chosing Not To Become Intimate Anytime Soon.. So This Is Where ☆ ▪︎ "A.C.E-D.E.M.I " ▪︎ ☆ Come In Handy For Me Because I Have Been Called A "Prude" For Not Engaging Into Being Intimate With Every Guy That I Meet.. No Thank's.. I Perfer To Get To Know Them More 1st Before Anything Happen's.. I'am And Alway's Be Simply Myself Just More Unique..."× Sincerely, ☆ ▪︎ SKADI ▪︎ ☆#venting #InnerThought 's

× " Do We Ever Get The Feeling That We Will Never Be Fully Free From Our Dark Thought's?... We Find Help And Way's To Cope But It Will Never Become Enough Until It's Too Late... Lately The World Is In A Full Mental Ward Lockdown Within Ourselve's And Our Mind... How Do We Get Better In Time.. Does Medication Really Help... And To What Extent... We All Have Crying Sleepless Night's.. But Hey Nobody Understand's Us.. In The Mist Of A Full Blown Breakdown.. How Do We Deal With The Every Day... Of Feel Unloved...Worthless...In Hartbreaking.. Pain Within A Shattered Nightmare... With One Blink It Could All Just Disappear For A Day... Your Mind Make's You Feel Like Your Nothing.. Believe Me When I Say.. That I Have NEVER Thought Of Myself As A Beautiful Person.. Even Though I Have People Tell Me That... My Mind Tell's Me That's Not True Lie's.. I'm Stuck In A Vicious Cycle Of Self Doubt... I'm Afraid To Go Seek Help Or Therapy Because To Be Honest I Don't Want To Re Live Everything That I Have Been Through... And The Thought's Of Taking Anything.. Will I Be Labled A Drug Addict? Or Insane... My Fear Is Real... So I Would Rather Keep Everything That I Carry With Me Secert... The Dreadful... Pain...The..Sadness..The Loathing Hatered.. I Fake Being Fully Happy... So Put On The Fake Smile... So That People Would Leave Me Alone... And Not Ask Me Question's.. These Are The Ongoing Trick's In My Mind... Your Welcome.. I'm Not Prefect In Anyway... " × Sincerely, ☆ ▪︎SKADI ▪︎☆ #InnerThought 's #Poetry

× " I Already Love Myself So Please Don't Tell Me About It...I Already Know... I Just Wanted To Be Curious And Bounce Off Advice And Not Negative One's... I Already Put Up With So Much Negative Talk On A Daily Basis.. I'm Not Ready To Be Dating Etc. Because I'm Just Not Into It Currently. Yeah People Will Litterly Ask Me Why I'm Single. Sure I Would Love To Have Someone In My Life That Fully Truly Understands Me. But People Are Now So Snobby...And Picky Like It's Not Right × Or Fair To Treat Someone Especially Women Like An Object. Well Both Sexe's Do It Now... And It's Cruel We Are All Unique Human Being's. So What Would Make A Perfect Partner L.M.F.A.O. × I Don't Know The Spiritual Universe... And The Norse God's Will Eventually Guide Me. In Due Time. As For My Feature Partner... He Has To Definitely Be Kind...Have A Sense Of Humor...Learn How To Take Care Of Himself...Share The Same Goal's...Belief's.. Just Love Life.. × And Fully Accecpt Me × My Mental & Physical Disabilitie's. People Really Need To Learn How To Fully Appreciate The One's They Love × Want In A Life Partner... Not To Cut & Run When Something Doesn't Go Thier Way. Or Think's That Thier Partner Is Not Good Enough For Them Anymore. It's Not Nice To Treat People Of Both Sexe's This Way. And It's Happening Now Which Is Unfortunate To See.. × ☆ S.K. ☆ #InnerThought 's#InnerFeeling 's