Dealing with mental health and still functioning as a caregiver daily
I am a 51 year old woman that was diagnosed in 2005 with major depression disorder and anxiety. I am raising my 2 grandchildren by myself both children have adhd, separation anxiety and major learning disabilities. I have 4 children my 2 oldest are addicted to drugs my 3rd son died by suicide at 22 which put me in unreal anguish and not being able to function properly in everyday life activities. I live quietly and I keep almost fully to myself at all times, not able to handle the normal ups and downs of even simple everyday life. It’s been almost 5 years since my sons suicide and 7 years since I recieved custody of my 2 grandchildren, everyday life for me is a routine of the same thing done daily to function. No big changes are moves are made, since my sons death a overwhelming fear and pain are a daily reminder of the loss that paralyzed my world. I live mostly in my room and don’t leave the house unless groceries are other necessary things have to be done. Most of my friends didn’t know how to act are deal with my sons Suicide. So in 5 years I have pretty much lived as a hermit daily with my thoughts for company. I’m joining the mighty for information and to understand how I can learn how to live everyday with these things and still be as productive as possible.