I was diagnosed with two of my mental illnesses in 2019. Bipolar Disorder and PTSD. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder a few years ago. It can be a struggle sometimes. I assume I inherited the Bipolar Disorder but I cannot be certain since I know nothing of my medical history since I am adopted. From what I've read though, Bipolar is usually inherited. The emotional ups and downs (literally) of this disorder can be physically and mentally exhausting. My manic and depressed episodes leave me feeling like I can't be stable though this isn't true.

I feel like I swing between the two states and sometimes I wonder why, since I'm on mood stabilizers. I developed the PTSD from the years of Emotional and Sexual abuse I experienced growing up. When I received that diagnosis (after being in the hospital following a suicide attempt) I didn't really understand. Now I realize it was the right diagnosis.

The thought that I developed something like that makes me realize how terrified I was and how heinous the abuse was. That it has had a lasting effect on me.

Borderline Personality Disorder is something I am still researching. The emotional dysfunction just makes the Bipolar worse. I feel like my emotions are all over the place. My reactions are intense. I know this but yet I feel like it triggers the Bipolar. The Bipolar triggers the PTSD which ruins my day. Living with three mental illnesses on a daily basis can be difficult. All the medications and therapy sessions help but some days it's just a lot. The bad mental health days are far in between but sometimes it's a lot to keep up with. I'm sure a lot of you can relate. Wishing you the best.

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