morals

So yesterday I feel like I got a lot done. I went out, came home and organized some stuff. I worked out. I cooked. And I helped my “friend” with something he needed help with all while dealing with the fact that this “friend” is someone I think I want to be with... relationship wise but also just found out yesterday the gender of his child. This is the same friend I’ve been posting about for a while now. ANYWAY.... the entire time he’s out with her and I’m doing this thing for him... he’s flirting with me. And I know I KNOW I shouldn’t allow it. BUT maybe my ex was right.... I have no morals. Or at the very least as Halsey has once said “I’ve got a long way to go until self preservation. THINK MY MORAL COMPASS IS ON A VACATION. And I can’t believe I still feed my f****** temptation. I’m still looking for my salvation.” #Depression #PTSD #Anxiety #Relationships #morals #Loss #Grief