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One of those days.

Well, one of those days it just feels like your battery is on 0%. I woke normaly, but as the day went on i increasingly felt so bad. Like my head weights a ton, and my suicidal toughts came worse. My therapist said i might have dysthymia, and the symptons really match my behavior. I relapsed with my self harm again, and i am upset at myself because of this. I just feel like i am done, like i can't take feeling like this anymore. And the worst part is that nothing happened at all. I just got into this mood suddenly and i feel so tired. I don't want to die at all but i feel like i will always feel miserable. And my insistence on not wanting to heal is the worse. I just needed to vent on how i feel today, since i can never speak with my therapist about this, even if its her job, i just can't talk about this even if i want to, feels like my throat simply stops working. And school started again, just to get me more and more exausted. In times like this i wish i could just stop existing for a while. I'm. Completely. EXHAUSTED. #Dysthymia

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One of those days.

Well, one of those days it just feels like your battery is on 0%. I woke normaly, but as the day went on i increasingly felt so bad. Like my head weights a ton, and my suicidal toughts came worse. My therapist said i might have dysthymia, and the symptons really match my behavior. I relapsed with my self harm again, and i am upset at myself because of this. I just feel like i am done, like i can't take feeling like this anymore. And the worst part is that nothing happened at all. I just got into this mood suddenly and i feel so tired. I don't want to die at all but i feel like i will always feel miserable. And my insistence on not wanting to heal is the worse. I just needed to vent on how i feel today, since i can never speak with my therapist about this, even if its her job, i just can't talk about this even if i want to, feels like my throat simply stops working. And school started again, just to get me more and more exausted. In times like this i wish i could just stop existing for a while. I'm. Completely. EXHAUSTED. #Dysthymia

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The Fog That Lingers: A Journey Through the Haze of and Substance Use

In the world of mental health and substance use, there exists a phenomenon often whispered about but rarely addressed head-on: brain fog. It's a term that doesn't quite capture the full extent of its impact, yet for those who have waded through its murky waters, it's a reality that's both profound and debilitating.

Imagine waking up each day to a world that's out of focus. Your thoughts, once sharp and coherent, now feel like they're being filtered through a dense mist. This is the world of someone who has battled long-term mental health challenges and substance use. It's a world where the simple act of existing becomes a daily struggle.

Sarah, a 35-year-old woman, knows this world all too well. For years, she grappled with anxiety and depression, finding temporary solace in substances that promised quick relief but delivered long-term consequences. Over time, the clarity of her thoughts diminished. She describes her experience as "living in a dream where everything feels slightly unreal and disconnected."

This brain fog, as Sarah and many others experience, isn't just about forgetfulness or a lack of concentration. It's a comprehensive cognitive disturbance that affects memory, understanding, and even the sense of self. It's like trying to navigate through life with a GPS that's constantly recalibrating, never quite sure #of the destination.

But what causes this fog? Research suggests that prolonged substance use and mental health struggles can lead to changes in the brain, particularly in areas responsible for memory, attention, and decision-making. The brain, in its attempt to cope with the constant stress and chemical alterations, adapts in ways that aren't always beneficial in the long term.

For Sarah, the journey out of th#e fog wasn't quick or easy. It involved therapy, medication, and a steadfast commitment to understanding and addressing her mental health and substance use issues. Gradually, the haze began to lift, revealing a world that was brighter and more tangible.

Recovery, however, isn't a linear process. There are days when the fog rolls back in, obscuring the progress made. But with each day, Sarah learns to navigate these challenges a little better, to recognize the signs of the fog's return and to use the tools she's acquired to disperse it.

The story of brain fog in the context of mental health and substance use is a reminder of the complex interplay between our psychological well-being and our cognitive functions. It highlights the need for holistic approaches in treatment, ones that acknowledge not just the physical symptoms but also the cognitive and emotional landscapes that are so intricately intertwined.

For those walking through this fog, remember: you're not alone, and the haze does lift. With support, understanding, and a commitment to healing, the world can become clear once again.

#Depression #MentalHealth #DepressiveDisorders #BipolarDepression #PersistentDepressiveDisorder #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #SubstanceUseDisorders #Addiction

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Doc does believe

my next visit he did a shot test and said yes u have ADHD but i want u to go thru 2 more test to prove it once and for all and he said then we can talk about stimulants. well i did those 2 test in 1 day 2hrs each then i get a call they want me to do 1 more test. i many somethin more than meets the eye. i am kinda scared of what else i have. i have Bipolar ADHD, OCD Cluster B personality disorders which are Borderline, Narcissistic (my fav) and Histrionic , Dysthymia (nka) Persistent Depressive Disorder. and under Borderline i can have a nasty temper. alot of people run from me. so i only tell bipolar thats why get my SSDI

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Navigating Hopelessness

Hello, Mighties (-: I am really going through it today. I have been struggling with depression and dissociation for about a week. I’m using my DBT skills and supports to try to get through my work week, but I’m still struggling. I called out today from work because I am just a mess. Anyone have advice/insight/thoughts on navigating responsibilities when it feels impossible? Thanks for the support and I wish you all well! (-: #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #ChronicFatigue #Dysthymia #MentalHealth #Grief

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Navigating Hopelessness

Hello, Mighties (-: I am really going through it today. I have been struggling with depression and dissociation for about a week. I’m using my DBT skills and supports to try to get through my work week, but I’m still struggling. I called out today from work because I am just a mess. Anyone have advice/insight/thoughts on navigating responsibilities when it feels impossible? Thanks for the support and I wish you all well! (-: #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #ChronicFatigue #Dysthymia #MentalHealth #Grief

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All alone #SuicidalIdeation #PersistentDepressiveDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder

I work to provide for myself and my mom. My mom needs me financially but otherwise nobody seems to care. She doesn’t want me to die because my brother died suddenly. I get it my physical and mental illnesses don’t make me the life of the party. Everybody has their own lives. So why am I alive? A question nobody seems to be able to answer. Not even me. My body and mind are broken. I’m so tired of fighting. I don’t know what I have left. I filed for bankruptcy because ketamine is the most effective treatment. No insurance coverage just out of pocket. I spend so much money trying to stay alive and I don’t know why.

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So absolutely frustrating and heartbreaking.

I’ve been trying to make friends lately and it seems like anytime it’s time to bring up my condition, People are just so nasty about it. They act like it’s just an exaggeration and they know exactly what to do to “cure” me , but have never suffered from mental health issues ever. It’s just hurtful, I feel like I just don’t fit in anymore. I’m very fortunate to have a supportive husband but miss that friend connection. I feel boxed in. #Agoraphobia #PanicDisorder #PTSD #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #PersistentDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety

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Might have possible BPD? Struggling to find my inner voice/ vent post ❤️🥺😩😢

Hello, I’m Laura, 23. Originally from Mexico but was raised in Canada.

I have a whole history of intra generational family trauma, I super appreciate all the sacrifices my family did to bring me here, I love them but it is so incredibly hard to get along with them as we are a high stress/ super dysfunctional and toxic fam sadly. We have been through a lot, and I feel a lot of internal shame. Mental health issues run from my mom’s side in particular, and more health issues on my dad’s side.

It’s been tough
Ups and downs, there’s a whole lengthy history about all the stuff we have been through as a family. I love them all so so much, I’m super empathetic but it’s draining the fact we just can’t get along, it was always mainly my mom and dad who literally can’t stand each other but never got divorced because of financial reasons, they aren’t too much the traditional or religious type at least my mom especially she’s actually pretty anti-mexican and racist ironically so I wasn’t really raised in my culture, so I have some issues there too though I try to be open minded and find out on my own. Anyways long story short.

She’s diagnosed with major major depression, severe ptsd, chronic pain, heart disease, and so on she also most likely has super bad undiagnosed anxiety, very explosive bpd/ anger issues etc.

My sister has ulcerative colitis, and I’ve guessed oppositional defiant disorder or just very rebellious even since a child but not diagnosed could just be her and my mom have never ever gotten along and maybe never will lol to the point it gets violent confrontations, we have had to call the cops before sometimes, my sister has improved a lot but she also has pretty explosive bpd and anger issues, anxiety, long term depression or dysthymia i don’t know it’s like a thing where she rarely ever feels happy and is always numb or very callous in a way/ stoic she never ever cries.

My dad is more traditional

And things emotional health/ meant health is being weak minded etc

Just Canadian things even though my moms mother and aunt in Mexico have severe mental health too and are homeless due to lack of resources and understanding, her mom is very poor and skinny now as elderly sadly apparently but she is housed.

Anyways there’s a whole life story really hard to put into one post only.

Anyways I have diagnosed Generalized Anxiety Disorder so basically chronic stress and severe anxiety at times other times it’s low functioning/high functioning
Environment is a big one for me since there’s been some emotional abuse for a while now. Though I love my fam it’s hard to get into counselling without them wanting to, or them never wanting to learn non violent communication and learn healthy boundaries and so on.

I’m struggling internally because I have depression, ptsd, social anxiety, panic disorder, etc

My biggest are anxiety and depression.

But since my sister is diagnosed with BPD and my mom has most likely undiagnosed BPD too my current mental health caseworker says I might actually be at risk for it
Because though I don’t maybe apply to the most common symptoms or diagnosis criteria there is a spectrum.

I don’t have too many anger issues myself or explosive bpd like they do because I’ve been on the receiving end and I know what that feels like,

I’m a huge Empath and highly sensitive person,

I don’t like to be victimized in the sense I try my best to volunteer, get counselling, work on my conditions, there’s so much stigma and hate and I respect people who don’t believe in mental health stuff or support it, but at least for me personally. Know it’s just as important as physical health and ignoring it only makes it worse in my case. Sometimes I overthink everything am I really anxious and depressed or feel like a burden to society and so on but I try really hard to use self love and acceptance while I do my best to cope and do self improvement.

Anyways sorry just venting because I guess it’s hard to explain some things to counsellors as each one has their approach and currently can’t find free or affordable counselling and my caseworker is nice to get me support and resources but a bit stigmatizing in some things too or at least has a different approach in some things. A bit of lack of empathy just because on the outside I appear high functioning due to masking my mental health but I try not to and struggle a lot behind the scenes sometimes since my environment makes my recovery a lot worse sadly and it’s hard at the moment to keep a job etc

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It’s hard because in recent years my sister has become super conservative and what some people would consider Qanon
I respect her beliefs and love her I know in some ways maybe some stuff is true some is not idk

But also I love my mom and dad but my mom constantly lashes out and belittles me and my dad can be stigmatizing in comments it’s just a hard mix when you just want to love your family and also not be drained or affected by being around them I worse on my triggers so much but it’s hard when I just absorb everything and they always have to be right hard to voice my needs or stand up for myself / boundaries

So for me the only way is to spend less time with them sadly and make a second family outside the home with more positive or accepting individuals though I love my fam and hope we can get better in the future

Anyways I guess it’s hard because lately my head isn’t a safe place I repeat everything the thought patterns and things they say
I went to an lgbtq+ friendly event today to support some of my friends as an ally. And all I can do is feel is this right is this wrong, even though I’m just trying to be nice and attend my first pride event, I respect liberal and conservative people religious or not /democrat or republican etc I have friends or fam on both sides, but it’s hard I feel I have no voice like I can’t respect myself and constantly question myself

It’s hard I feel maybe my inferiority complex and trauma etc some things might be linked to possible bpd or at least more counselling I need to do to work in I’ve been getting so many headaches lately from extreme heat outside walking as I can’t/ don’t drive at the moment and we had a bus strike for almost 6 months

And all the overthinking
I know coping tools and meditation etc I take medication maybe I need an increase in meds or additional meds but I’m scared about side effects idk I guess I’m just a struggling probably need to journal some more I just want the extra mean internal thoughts to go away it’s not me it’s not who I try to be I’m a decent and kind person I try to help when I can and be open minded help in the community but I can’t seem to do it lately for myself and it just makes me break down I try gratitude stay positive eyes but sometimes some days nothing helps it’s tough or my moods and thoughts change so much during the day it’s hard I know I just have to be good enough for me I shouldn’t care what anyone else says or thinks but it’s hard especially when it comes from your family most of the time

Thanks for any kindness and non judgmental comments this might sound over dramatic and I’ll feel better tomorrow but I guess just hard sometimes. Anyways excuse the long rant or venting and any typos or lack of grammar my phone is slow .

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Stress #Trying #New

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