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About making art the Nick Cave style

<p>About making art the Nick Cave style</p>
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I am new here!

So... Yeah. I kinda hate people. Everyone, really.
I've had depression and anxiety in the past. 4 years ago I was diagnosed with MADD, right about that time I began struggling with meth addiction and so everything went down hill. Long story short, I was admitted to an addiction clinic (not a clinic per se, but one of those places that are called anexos in Mexico, which are not run by health or mental health professionals and they tend to be pretty... aggressive?) and stayed there for six months, anyways... After that, I kinda lost everything and almost all my friends turned their backs on me. I've been out of the clinic and clean from drugs for more than a year now. After the clinic, I returned to my hometown and since then I'm living with my mother, who has supported me a lot... And I mean, A LOT. I have a job and that's a good thing because my life has structure. And I'm also seeing a therapist. But after the clinic, I feel like all the people, everyone around me, really bothers me. I can't stand being near anyone and rather be alone in my room than to talk to anyone. I don't feel like it's depression, it does not feels like I remember depression. It's more like I am just angry at the world and at everyone, even my mother, all the time. I do not react angrily and I'm able to control my mood when I am around her, but the feeling is there. I was good at making friends before although I've always been an introvert, but the thought of talking to someone now just makes me feel sick, like I just want to tell everyone to go to hell and leave me alone for good. I'm thinking how much I hate everyone and how much I would appreciate to be left alone for good, for ever.

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I am new here!

So... Yeah. I kinda hate people. Everyone, really.
I've had depression and anxiety in the past. 4 years ago I was diagnosed with MADD, right about that time I began struggling with meth addiction and so everything went down hill. Long story short, I was admitted to an addiction clinic (not a clinic per se, but one of those places that are called anexos in Mexico, which are not run by health or mental health professionals and they tend to be pretty... aggressive?) and stayed there for six months, anyways... After that, I kinda lost everything and almost all my friends turned their backs on me. I've been out of the clinic and clean from drugs for more than a year now. After the clinic, I returned to my hometown and since then I'm living with my mother, who has supported me a lot... And I mean, A LOT. I have a job and that's a good thing because my life has structure. And I'm also seeing a therapist. But after the clinic, I feel like all the people, everyone around me, really bothers me. I can't stand being near anyone and rather be alone in my room than to talk to anyone. I don't feel like it's depression, it does not feels like I remember depression. It's more like I am just angry at the world and at everyone, even my mother, all the time. I do not react angrily and I'm able to control my mood when I am around her, but the feeling is there. I was good at making friends before although I've always been an introvert, but the thought of talking to someone now just makes me feel sick, like I just want to tell everyone to go to hell and leave me alone for good. I'm thinking how much I hate everyone and how much I would appreciate to be left alone for good, for ever.

4 people are talking about this
Community Voices

I am new here!

So... Yeah. I kinda hate people. Everyone, really.
I've had depression and anxiety in the past. 4 years ago I was diagnosed with MADD, right about that time I began struggling with meth addiction and so everything went down hill. Long story short, I was admitted to an addiction clinic (not a clinic per se, but one of those places that are called anexos in Mexico, which are not run by health or mental health professionals and they tend to be pretty... aggressive?) and stayed there for six months, anyways... After that, I kinda lost everything and almost all my friends turned their backs on me. I've been out of the clinic and clean from drugs for more than a year now. After the clinic, I returned to my hometown and since then I'm living with my mother, who has supported me a lot... And I mean, A LOT. I have a job and that's a good thing because my life has structure. And I'm also seeing a therapist. But after the clinic, I feel like all the people, everyone around me, really bothers me. I can't stand being near anyone and rather be alone in my room than to talk to anyone. I don't feel like it's depression, it does not feels like I remember depression. It's more like I am just angry at the world and at everyone, even my mother, all the time. I do not react angrily and I'm able to control my mood when I am around her, but the feeling is there. I was good at making friends before although I've always been an introvert, but the thought of talking to someone now just makes me feel sick, like I just want to tell everyone to go to hell and leave me alone for good. I'm thinking how much I hate everyone and how much I would appreciate to be left alone for good, for ever.

4 people are talking about this