atsushi

@aiuchi
I am a INTJ still in his teen years. I like to think of my mind as a black void except in the void there is a building where my different traits, perfectionism,the introvert, the extrovert, the scared one, the over thinker etc.. work. I like to think them as people and some of thses people have a higher post in that building depending upon what level of hold they have on me. Its like a few like 6 or 7 main traits who a family of their other traits which came from them.
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Do all teens think like me?

When i was a 5th grader i used to think all these things in my head, i was a skinny child who could easily make friends and fit into groups. As i grew i didn't knew i would change into an introvert. But i didn't seem to care in 9th grade, i couldn't small talk. Then i found about something called a personality type, i already knew few of my traits so out of curiosity about finding about my true self i started studying my personality type the INTJ (or the INFJ i am not quite sure).
These past years have been incredibly weird. During the covid lockdown i changed.
I lost interest in everything tried to study but got bored, listening to music got boring, even watching tv or youtube got boring but i had nothing to do so i just sat watching things on tv everyday for a year.
I don't know what it was, i thought it was my hormones, or it could be i was depressed. I am never sure and i found out that i over think things(one of the worst traits people can have).
Now i am here, this year my dad passed away. I cried but i didn't miss him. I have a thinking that people pass away and thats how life works, i had told myself that since 9th grade. I would never do something to my body just to increase my life span, i even started working out to stay healthy(it didn't end well, i stopped when we switched homes and now i just feel nausea and dizziness after working out). But few days back as always i tried talking to someone about my inside personal thing, things i have never shared to anyone cause I don't have friends. Lets keep that aside for the moment, i talked to my mom but as always it failed. I think why couldn't i get a mom who understood and so today i cried after waking up realizing that all my traits have come from my dad and now i don't have anyone to share this to.

So i am writing here thinking maybe someone will understand.
I know it is long passage but i just wanna know if there really are people like me, who can understand me.

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Do all teens think like me?

When i was a 5th grader i used to think all these things in my head, i was a skinny child who could easily make friends and fit into groups. As i grew i didn't knew i would change into an introvert. But i didn't seem to care in 9th grade, i couldn't small talk. Then i found about something called a personality type, i already knew few of my traits so out of curiosity about finding about my true self i started studying my personality type the INTJ (or the INFJ i am not quite sure).
These past years have been incredibly weird. During the covid lockdown i changed.
I lost interest in everything tried to study but got bored, listening to music got boring, even watching tv or youtube got boring but i had nothing to do so i just sat watching things on tv everyday for a year.
I don't know what it was, i thought it was my hormones, or it could be i was depressed. I am never sure and i found out that i over think things(one of the worst traits people can have).
Now i am here, this year my dad passed away. I cried but i didn't miss him. I have a thinking that people pass away and thats how life works, i had told myself that since 9th grade. I would never do something to my body just to increase my life span, i even started working out to stay healthy(it didn't end well, i stopped when we switched homes and now i just feel nausea and dizziness after working out). But few days back as always i tried talking to someone about my inside personal thing, things i have never shared to anyone cause I don't have friends. Lets keep that aside for the moment, i talked to my mom but as always it failed. I think why couldn't i get a mom who understood and so today i cried after waking up realizing that all my traits have come from my dad and now i don't have anyone to share this to.

So i am writing here thinking maybe someone will understand.
I know it is long passage but i just wanna know if there really are people like me, who can understand me.

22 people are talking about this
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Is it the same for you?

Its like i am a ball of all these complex emotions and traits. I think one thing and too many of my traits fire up. Is this how it ends or how it could have begun differently or how the beginning to end scenarios can be different.
Its too complex. Is it the same for all INFJ types. Its like i am in a office and when i open a file, all this work load comes up and to complete the file i have to complete all the work load and work load also has its own set of files and so on and i feel like all the energy was used up from my body(mentally)
Its too conplex how can i shut down my brain without using phone all day.
If anyone has experienced this please i would like to know your thoughts on this whatever i am facing.
It just leaves me exhausted mentally. #MentalHealthAwareness #ComplexEmotions

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Do all teens think like me?

When i was a 5th grader i used to think all these things in my head, i was a skinny child who could easily make friends and fit into groups. As i grew i didn't knew i would change into an introvert. But i didn't seem to care in 9th grade, i couldn't small talk. Then i found about something called a personality type, i already knew few of my traits so out of curiosity about finding about my true self i started studying my personality type the INTJ (or the INFJ i am not quite sure).
These past years have been incredibly weird. During the covid lockdown i changed.
I lost interest in everything tried to study but got bored, listening to music got boring, even watching tv or youtube got boring but i had nothing to do so i just sat watching things on tv everyday for a year.
I don't know what it was, i thought it was my hormones, or it could be i was depressed. I am never sure and i found out that i over think things(one of the worst traits people can have).
Now i am here, this year my dad passed away. I cried but i didn't miss him. I have a thinking that people pass away and thats how life works, i had told myself that since 9th grade. I would never do something to my body just to increase my life span, i even started working out to stay healthy(it didn't end well, i stopped when we switched homes and now i just feel nausea and dizziness after working out). But few days back as always i tried talking to someone about my inside personal thing, things i have never shared to anyone cause I don't have friends. Lets keep that aside for the moment, i talked to my mom but as always it failed. I think why couldn't i get a mom who understood and so today i cried after waking up realizing that all my traits have come from my dad and now i don't have anyone to share this to.

So i am writing here thinking maybe someone will understand.
I know it is long passage but i just wanna know if there really are people like me, who can understand me.

22 people are talking about this
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Do all teens think like me?

When i was a 5th grader i used to think all these things in my head, i was a skinny child who could easily make friends and fit into groups. As i grew i didn't knew i would change into an introvert. But i didn't seem to care in 9th grade, i couldn't small talk. Then i found about something called a personality type, i already knew few of my traits so out of curiosity about finding about my true self i started studying my personality type the INTJ (or the INFJ i am not quite sure).
These past years have been incredibly weird. During the covid lockdown i changed.
I lost interest in everything tried to study but got bored, listening to music got boring, even watching tv or youtube got boring but i had nothing to do so i just sat watching things on tv everyday for a year.
I don't know what it was, i thought it was my hormones, or it could be i was depressed. I am never sure and i found out that i over think things(one of the worst traits people can have).
Now i am here, this year my dad passed away. I cried but i didn't miss him. I have a thinking that people pass away and thats how life works, i had told myself that since 9th grade. I would never do something to my body just to increase my life span, i even started working out to stay healthy(it didn't end well, i stopped when we switched homes and now i just feel nausea and dizziness after working out). But few days back as always i tried talking to someone about my inside personal thing, things i have never shared to anyone cause I don't have friends. Lets keep that aside for the moment, i talked to my mom but as always it failed. I think why couldn't i get a mom who understood and so today i cried after waking up realizing that all my traits have come from my dad and now i don't have anyone to share this to.

So i am writing here thinking maybe someone will understand.
I know it is long passage but i just wanna know if there really are people like me, who can understand me.

22 people are talking about this
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Do all teens think like me?

When i was a 5th grader i used to think all these things in my head, i was a skinny child who could easily make friends and fit into groups. As i grew i didn't knew i would change into an introvert. But i didn't seem to care in 9th grade, i couldn't small talk. Then i found about something called a personality type, i already knew few of my traits so out of curiosity about finding about my true self i started studying my personality type the INTJ (or the INFJ i am not quite sure).
These past years have been incredibly weird. During the covid lockdown i changed.
I lost interest in everything tried to study but got bored, listening to music got boring, even watching tv or youtube got boring but i had nothing to do so i just sat watching things on tv everyday for a year.
I don't know what it was, i thought it was my hormones, or it could be i was depressed. I am never sure and i found out that i over think things(one of the worst traits people can have).
Now i am here, this year my dad passed away. I cried but i didn't miss him. I have a thinking that people pass away and thats how life works, i had told myself that since 9th grade. I would never do something to my body just to increase my life span, i even started working out to stay healthy(it didn't end well, i stopped when we switched homes and now i just feel nausea and dizziness after working out). But few days back as always i tried talking to someone about my inside personal thing, things i have never shared to anyone cause I don't have friends. Lets keep that aside for the moment, i talked to my mom but as always it failed. I think why couldn't i get a mom who understood and so today i cried after waking up realizing that all my traits have come from my dad and now i don't have anyone to share this to.

So i am writing here thinking maybe someone will understand.
I know it is long passage but i just wanna know if there really are people like me, who can understand me.

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Relax

<p>Relax</p>
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I don't like what i am feeling!

So today i woke up and felt tired. I felt like i had a dream so i tried to remember it and it came to me. Its weird when you want to remember a good dream you can't but you can always remember bad ones.
So i woke up dreaming that my mom had died, so in the dream i tried pressing her chest to pump blood to the heart but it didn't work.
I woke up feeling scared, lost and alone. My whole day is ruined.
Also being prone to sad emotions and being an introvert, i don't have anyone to tell this to. I tried telling her yesterday. I tried to express myself but she didn't understand, instead she tells me her knee is hurt and she is getting it checked by the doctor. She told me to grow up and said that she might (i don't want to say it). Who tells their child that in anger?? i guess some people just can't understand other people's emotions on a higher level than what is being felt.
In January, my dad had passed away, the only person who i think i had traits similar. I think he would've understood, he was very understanding and intelligent.
Now i am just a teenager with no friends or family, crying thinking about how death had always been near me.

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Feeling something's wrong with me

Hey guys, for a while i have been experiencing something very weird and I don't know what to do where to go or how to fix it or if it is even a problem.
This past year i have had been watching youtube, anime or any series to pass the time.
Here's the catch i started normal but after binge watching different series, i got bored of them in 2021. I felt something was wrong with me, i want to pass time, so i watch stuff , get bored after 1 or 2 episode of 20 mins and think about studying but I don't and still put up with the tv series just to pass time. The stress of studying is always in the back of my mind but when i try to study I DON'T WANT TO. When i try to watch the tv instead, I GET BORED, and this just kept repeating from 2020 till now
I am weirded out by this. I just want to start studying for my upcoming exams but i can't figure out what is wrong with me. I am just trying to pass my time

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is aiuchi. I’m new to The Mighty and look forward to sharing my story.

#MightyTogether

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