I went no contact with my 89 year old mother 3 years ago and it never gets easier. Since my mom and brother never contact me I guess it's hard to tell who went no contact with who. BUT I know they see it as me not contacting them. Strange thinking.
Sliding down a deep slope
I’ve been married to him for 25 years. It’s so complicated, I can’t even sort it. I guess I’ve spent years pretending that the “old him” is gone. When in fact the “old me” has been subdued into submission for the past 15 years. I feel like a huge fake. A phony. An imposter. He’s a narcissist so everyone who knows us thinks I’m a pampered queen on a pedestal. Over the past few days, I’ve just felt like I’m slipping into a depression. I’ve never felt so hopeless.
How old were you when you fell in love with your first abuser?
Over the course of a couple of months, I have lost a lot of toxic friendships. I am at a certain point in my life where I am looking around and saying "These are the kind of people I hang out with?!". While I know letting these ties go are gonna help in the long run, I still can't help but feel a little lonely and terrified. I'm honestly scared that I won't find that place where I belong, that I will wander aimlessly through friend after friend for the rest of my life. I also don't know how to go about looking for new friends. It's a skill I've never really learned how to adapt. All of my friends just kind of started talking to me when they noticed we had stuff in common.
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