Mr Ben

@bg09011984
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We have COVID-19 now, and I'm feeling panicked.

I tested positive on Monday. I've had moderately bad flu-like symptoms. I'm not feeling any worse, but also not any better. My wife just tested positive today. Our 6 year old daughter is still testing negative but she has some symptoms and I think it's a matter of time. Has anyone else been in a situation like this? Both parents have Covid, still have to care for the child and feed the pets and everything? How did you manage? My anxiety is through the roof and I'm not coping well. I could use some support here. I just want us all to get healthy and stay healthy. #COVID19 #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CheckInWithMe

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We have COVID-19 now, and I'm feeling panicked.

I tested positive on Monday. I've had moderately bad flu-like symptoms. I'm not feeling any worse, but also not any better. My wife just tested positive today. Our 6 year old daughter is still testing negative but she has some symptoms and I think it's a matter of time. Has anyone else been in a situation like this? Both parents have Covid, still have to care for the child and feed the pets and everything? How did you manage? My anxiety is through the roof and I'm not coping well. I could use some support here. I just want us all to get healthy and stay healthy. #COVID19 #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CheckInWithMe

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We have COVID-19 now, and I'm feeling panicked.

I tested positive on Monday. I've had moderately bad flu-like symptoms. I'm not feeling any worse, but also not any better. My wife just tested positive today. Our 6 year old daughter is still testing negative but she has some symptoms and I think it's a matter of time. Has anyone else been in a situation like this? Both parents have Covid, still have to care for the child and feed the pets and everything? How did you manage? My anxiety is through the roof and I'm not coping well. I could use some support here. I just want us all to get healthy and stay healthy. #COVID19 #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CheckInWithMe

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Covid & Guilt are taking me down

I’ve had Covid over a week now. I’ve had it pretty bad. Sickest I’ve ever been. I’m sure the fact that has had me in bed all this time isn’t helping. But I had the biggest breakdown I’ve ever had this year. Moved home with my parents for 3 months (I am 50 with 4 children and a husband). That’s how bad it got. I couldn’t stop thinking the kids deserved a better mum. But I was on my way up. Back at home. Back at work. Feeling positive. Then 6 weeks in, Covid. And now I’m sitting here crying about what a terrible mum I am. How all I ever wanted was to be a good mum. All I can think about are all the things I’ve gotten wrong. How me loving them with all my heart had not stopped them having a mum who had mental illness issues all their childhood. I am so heartbroken. How do I get back up with this pain I feel.

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Toxic workplace

My job is getting so toxic, I can't decide if it would be worse for my career to stay until I get something better or to go on a medical leave, or just quit to start a tech support business which I was considering doing anyway. It's not the first time I've been in this situation, and I do have trauma from it. My anxiety is so severe. I'm terrified that the people I'm working with now will slander my name and prevent me from ever being employable anywhere else ever again. My wife and my 6 year old daughter have both told me that they miss the person I was before this job. I've been applying and interviewing for other positions every day, but I'm afraid that I'll be divorced or an alcoholic or in jail or dead by the time I get an offer. My wife and my daughter deserve so much better than the person I am right now. I'm only 37 and my blood pressure is way out of control and my doctor just doubled my medication for it.

Does someone want to talk to me? Virtual hug? Anything helps. I'm finding out that I never meant anything to so many people who meant so much to me. Abandonment is nothing to me anymore. I'm numb to it. My daughter is literally the only reason I'm alive right now. Her kindergarten graduation was today and I am so proud of her. She said that she wasn't even expecting me to be there. I felt happy for the 30 minutes of the graduation ceremony, but I felt like everyone was looking at me instead of the kids, and that my parents, my wife, and my in-laws didn't want me there. #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CPTSD

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Toxic workplace

My job is getting so toxic, I can't decide if it would be worse for my career to stay until I get something better or to go on a medical leave, or just quit to start a tech support business which I was considering doing anyway. It's not the first time I've been in this situation, and I do have trauma from it. My anxiety is so severe. I'm terrified that the people I'm working with now will slander my name and prevent me from ever being employable anywhere else ever again. My wife and my 6 year old daughter have both told me that they miss the person I was before this job. I've been applying and interviewing for other positions every day, but I'm afraid that I'll be divorced or an alcoholic or in jail or dead by the time I get an offer. My wife and my daughter deserve so much better than the person I am right now. I'm only 37 and my blood pressure is way out of control and my doctor just doubled my medication for it.

Does someone want to talk to me? Virtual hug? Anything helps. I'm finding out that I never meant anything to so many people who meant so much to me. Abandonment is nothing to me anymore. I'm numb to it. My daughter is literally the only reason I'm alive right now. Her kindergarten graduation was today and I am so proud of her. She said that she wasn't even expecting me to be there. I felt happy for the 30 minutes of the graduation ceremony, but I felt like everyone was looking at me instead of the kids, and that my parents, my wife, and my in-laws didn't want me there. #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CPTSD

17 people are talking about this
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Toxic workplace

My job is getting so toxic, I can't decide if it would be worse for my career to stay until I get something better or to go on a medical leave, or just quit to start a tech support business which I was considering doing anyway. It's not the first time I've been in this situation, and I do have trauma from it. My anxiety is so severe. I'm terrified that the people I'm working with now will slander my name and prevent me from ever being employable anywhere else ever again. My wife and my 6 year old daughter have both told me that they miss the person I was before this job. I've been applying and interviewing for other positions every day, but I'm afraid that I'll be divorced or an alcoholic or in jail or dead by the time I get an offer. My wife and my daughter deserve so much better than the person I am right now. I'm only 37 and my blood pressure is way out of control and my doctor just doubled my medication for it.

Does someone want to talk to me? Virtual hug? Anything helps. I'm finding out that I never meant anything to so many people who meant so much to me. Abandonment is nothing to me anymore. I'm numb to it. My daughter is literally the only reason I'm alive right now. Her kindergarten graduation was today and I am so proud of her. She said that she wasn't even expecting me to be there. I felt happy for the 30 minutes of the graduation ceremony, but I felt like everyone was looking at me instead of the kids, and that my parents, my wife, and my in-laws didn't want me there. #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #CPTSD

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Low self-esteem or real inadequacy?

Last night I called a helpline to talk, because I was crying too much. I told her I feel that I am born inadequate to live in this world. She immediately rephrased it as “low self-esteem”. When I was a small child, I had Asthma and some heart problem, and always need to be admitted in the hospital. I’m not sure what it is called, but in layman term, the doctor said there’s a hole in my heart, and my heartbeat sound different from the normal people. And suddenly I grew up, and I don’t need to go to hospital anymore, I’m not sure if it was cured or not. But I feel that it was a hint, a hint that I am not born suitable for this world. I don’t want to go through all the ‘sufferings’ that people say are ‘part of life’. If life is as such, then I don’t want life all together, there’s no point. I’m just thinking, how do you differentiate low self-esteem and real inadequacy? What if I’m really inadequate for life?

#Depression #anxiety #socialanxiety#anxietydisorder #socialanxietydisorder #dependentpersonalitydisorder #paranoidpersonalitydisorder #avoidantpersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #psychosis #psychoticdisorder #delusionaldisorder #autismspectrumdisorder #mentalhealth #selfcare #memes

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