Bianca Clarke

@biancaclarke
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would you rather your mental health be referred to an illness or a disease?

I think I know majority answer, but I wanted to ask anyways because some I love very much has just called my mental health a disease and I flinched when he said it. afterwards, he could tell that it hurt my feelings because I started crying ever so slightly, once I turned away from him and then he asked me to turn back around and then he saw me. #mentalhath #Depression #AnorexiaNervosa #BipolarDepression #everyone

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my dad took me to london for my eighteenth birthday. i’ve been begging to go to the uk again for ages and he finally made my wish come true.
london was lovely. my dad is the sweetest man on this planet. it was a great trip and it made me feel more secure about my future. i can see myself living the life i want and that is the best present i could ever ask for my birthday.
however.
these fucking mood swings.
there’s no tangible reason for them. i just out of nowhere stop speaking, become irritated or angry which makes me snap at people. i can’t help it. i try so very hard but i can’t. i don’t understand the cause of it and i hate that i have no control over myself. one moment i can be happy, can’t stop laughing, so full of energy and another irritated by everything, angry, so full of nervousness or hatred. or alternatively i go silent, completely numb and exhausted. these swings are unpredictable.
i can’t help but feel as if i’ve ruined our trip with my mood swings. i feel horrible. i keep ruining things.
could this be a sign of #BipolarDisorder or #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder ? does anyone know if it’s normal in those with #Depression #Anxiety or even #EatingDisorders like #AnorexiaNervosa #BulimiaNervosa ? i’m not well enough informed about this and i won’t be able to talk to a therapist or a doctor about it but i really want to find a solution. so does anyone suffer from extreme moodswings and how do you deal with them? any help at all will be greatly appreciated!

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Am I being selfish not wanting to listen to my bfs mum talk about her fibro every day?
I hurts me to see her in pain and I want to support her.

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Not “sick enough”

Even though my BMI is 16-17
Even though I spend hours exercising
Even though I’ve been severely restricting after relapsing
Even though I want help, I’m not sick enough. As long as I’m not severely underweight I don’t qualify for IP and my health care team make me keep myself accountable. I could go weeks/months between appt. or not go and hear nothing from them and hey maybe that’s selfish but I feel like I’m screaming, no one can hear me.
#AnorexiaNervosa

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Am I being selfish not wanting to listen to my bfs mum talk about her fibro every day?
I hurts me to see her in pain and I want to support her.

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How do I support my boyfriend with P-OCD

I have a history of sexual assault/abuse so he was scared to tell me. He hates the condition, and I am not sure how else to support him besides reassure him I will support him and I don't think of him differently because of it unless he acts upon it. I understand what it is like hating the voices in your head as I suffer many mental conditions. If you had a girlfriend, and P-
#POCD what would you find helpful? Thanks x

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TW: Suicidal Thoughts #Suicide

I just feel so alone and trapped right now. Everything is overwhelming and I can’t cope but even when I tried to end my life I stuffed that up too. Even if I go to the hospital, that will be breaking point with my nan and I won’t have a place to go home too. My eating disorder is coming back in full force and so is my increasing anxiety. I just want to die, but I don’t want to hurt anyone. Also my phych is off until end of Nov.

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I don't want to die. I just want to end the pain.

Are you still alive or just existing?

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