So, you probably think at least life can never get boring when you look out of your window and see Barbie Pink Cows in Bright Blue fields. Or a visit from a summer wasp makes you feel like an actor in a 50's B movie. Can't be that bad right ?
Well think again.
Although , there is no way to test it , even my neurologist was unwilling to put the diagnosis in my notes in case his colleagues wouldn't believe him , I seem to be suffering from a rare type of Migraine condition called Alice in Wonderland Syndrome.
Along with the other wild and not so wonderful migraine varieties in my head's bag of nasty tricks , this syndrome causes me to see strange hallucinations , or makes the people and objects around me change shape and size before it finally finishes the psychedelic field trip with an intense migraine head ache.
Before , I discovered , ' being Alice', could actually be a thing , I mostly kept what I was seeing to myself.
I hadn't linked the fact that these visions were followed by head pain , and that it could be the onset of the Migraine that caused them. In fact , I was convinced that I was mad in a way that nobody would understand , and thought the headache only happened because of the way my mind was being overwhelmed by the experience.
I only discovered the rare set of symptoms in the Migraine family when I had been diagnosed with Chronic Migraine Syndrome and my Neurologist suggested that I look up the different types of Migraine that I was having , so that I could understand what I was going through and why.
( I suffer from many Migraines in the Spectrum including Thunderclap , Migraine with Aura , activity onset , orgasm onset, and Stroke like Migraine).
When , I returned for my follow up appointment , I mentioned the syndrome , he hadn't really heard of it , but looking back on the notes from the previous appointment he noted that I had already finally been brave enough to mention this to him before learning that the condition existed.
Believe me , when it happens it is still scary , but it is also relief to know that I'm not losing my mind , or that I haven't accidentally fallen down a fictitious Rabbit Hole.
No , merely just receiving another unwanted gift from the uninvited friend that keeps on giving - Professor Migraine.
And , on a positive note, it means I know the Pain is about to strike and I can prepare for it.
At least I am in good company , as , in case your interested , it appears that Lewis Carroll was a famous migraine sufferer whom was plagued by the same thing , hence the name.
Now , where is that giant green Bunny Rabbit I saw earlier!