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Diagnosed: Bipolar Affective Disorder II - Borderline Personality Disorder - Generalised Anxiety - Misophonia
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My most damaging BPD outburst of anger was towards my teenage daughter, I've lost her forever

##fore I was diagnosed with BPD, my diagnoses were Bipolar2, depression and anxiety. During one of the rare times that my daughter chose to communicate with me she told me she had been diagnosed with Bipolar, severe depression and BPD and that it was all my fault. I wasn't familiar with BPD nor its abbreviation. So I defensively said she had made it all up and BPD was Bipolar. I'm filled with such shame and regret for that stupid comment. I became all that I hated in others when they invalidate my feelings. They're the last words she has to remember me by. #Children #Bipolar2Disorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Family #Kids #regrets

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Today's my birthday, and it's not going at all how I planned. I got up later than planned, because my boyfriend "lost track of time"; I was going to treat myself while at the same time challenging myself by traveling to a store I've been wanting to go to for a long time that's further away than I've driven by myself since I was young, but my boyfriend informed me upon waking yesterday that he has serious financial issues and we'll be super tight until he gets paid next Friday, but we'll still be tight; nevertheless, I still overspent, and feel like a pos; I got to dinner late, and had to wait and use up some gas, looking for a parking space; things just keep going wrong; and I'm just stupid! What's wrong with me?

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Lithium drug for Bipolar

I started taking lithium 2 months ago. I have mood swings as well as panic disorder

Now instead of just having anxiety and mild depression, i also have sever depression AND sever anxiety. Which is pretty cool.

Lithium was a big mistake this period. I stopped it and hope to become semi normal again. I'm just in pain 24/7. My mind was out of this world and i became almost suicidal.

And now I was prescribed Venlafaxine/Effecxor for depression and anxiety.

Does anyone know anything about this drug and can give a review please? One more wrong drug and i will go absolutely crazy.

#BipolarDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #PanicDisorder

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Are you an alchemist?

<p>Are you an alchemist?</p>
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Is This Gaslighting or a Nature of Emotion? #MentalHealth #EmotionalHealth

Hi, everyone! You can call me Kalei (Ka - Lay). So, basically I have mommy and daddy issues (mental and emotional abused since I was a kid) and I really don't want to talk to my known friends because I don't like burdening them with heavy stuff and I have trust issues that maybe they'll laugh at me, neglect me, and share my story. I went to Omegle to perhaps try to find someone to talk to but whatevs, it's a site full of pleasure-addicted-people. So, glad I found this site in Google because I am so desperate to share my story; I really want to start healing the broken child in me fully. If you're interested to hear my story, if someone is out there, please let me know that I am not sharing in an absent space. Thank you. Lots of love, Kalei. <3< p="">

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Hello?

I've been in an immobile depression for a few days and called the suicide hotline today. I'm posting here as a last resort; this usually makes me feel worse because I rarely get a response.

What do you all find helpful? On this site or in general?
#Depression

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Thoughts during Hypomania

<p>Thoughts during <a href="https://themighty.com/topic/hypomania/?label=Hypomania" class="tm-embed-link  tm-autolink health-map" data-id="5b23ce8a00553f33fe9949bb" data-name="Hypomania" title="Hypomania" target="_blank">Hypomania</a></p>
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Hello , I am watching the last few threads of my sanity slowly unwinding as my new meds side effects and all try to give me a mood higher than 0. I wonder who will win this race. Insanity or these new meds and us putting one foot in front of the other and leaning in the hope that momentum carries us forward.
My brain has a constant stream of noise on a loop. Voice who are perhaps fractured parts of me as a result of a horrific childhood #Trauma of repeated #sexual assault, neglect, abuse and the regular inner #self hate, alone with the creaky shadows I sometimes think I see in my peripheral. I don’t ever sleep any more. I am hyper vigilant. My brain lets my body takes little naps. This night it gave me 3 hours and 22 mins. My new meds make me queasy, edgy, agitated, head aches, increase my suicidal ideation , desire to self harm and give me about 10 more of sleep, Great. Yes I know it takes time for them to kick in but unfortunately my last threads are about to unwind. I have repeatedly tried the recommended relaxation techniques . Sitting still is suffocating and makes my skin hurt on the inside where the only way out is a pain stimulus, it causes major Panic #Anxiety reactions and gives me 3D high def in living colour night-terrors
Both of my therapists and my Psychiatrist are working well with me. The question is will it be in time?
I thought I was at rock bottom as far as my depressions goes. The darkest of my entire life. Then I discovered rock bottom has a basement.. I am again in a crowd and again unable to find where or if I fit . That is no surprise..
By the by Insanity is in the lead.

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Time To Relax

<p>Time To Relax</p>
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Hello , I am watching the last few threads of my sanity slowly unwinding as my new meds side effects and all try to give me a mood higher than 0. I wonder who will win this race. Insanity or these new meds and us putting one foot in front of the other and leaning in the hope that momentum carries us forward.
My brain has a constant stream of noise on a loop. Voice who are perhaps fractured parts of me as a result of a horrific childhood #Trauma of repeated #sexual assault, neglect, abuse and the regular inner #self hate, alone with the creaky shadows I sometimes think I see in my peripheral. I don’t ever sleep any more. I am hyper vigilant. My brain lets my body takes little naps. This night it gave me 3 hours and 22 mins. My new meds make me queasy, edgy, agitated, head aches, increase my suicidal ideation , desire to self harm and give me about 10 more of sleep, Great. Yes I know it takes time for them to kick in but unfortunately my last threads are about to unwind. I have repeatedly tried the recommended relaxation techniques . Sitting still is suffocating and makes my skin hurt on the inside where the only way out is a pain stimulus, it causes major Panic #Anxiety reactions and gives me 3D high def in living colour night-terrors
Both of my therapists and my Psychiatrist are working well with me. The question is will it be in time?
I thought I was at rock bottom as far as my depressions goes. The darkest of my entire life. Then I discovered rock bottom has a basement.. I am again in a crowd and again unable to find where or if I fit . That is no surprise..
By the by Insanity is in the lead.

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