I need help, I really don’t want to be on this earth anymore. I feel like friends don’t really understand. The symptoms of MS is mind boggling. I’m tired, depressed and in pain with many other side effects. And I’m my worse enemy. I eat like crap, I was sober and now I’m drinking. I have no sex drive at all so good luck getting a partner. I wouldn’t want to be with me. I agree with people that say that you can’t see how horrible we feel. What am I supposed to do? Complain all the time? I’ve been a hairstylist for 46 years, just a 1/4 of full time. It takes me 3 hours to get ready. 2 hours just to get my head and body together. Sorry to complain so much.