Christopher Macauley

@christophermacauley
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Is this global energy crisis affecting people mentally?

I think that it is important for an early disclosure. This may only just be a "me thing", but 2022 has just been every bit as challenging and every bit as tough as the covid years. And yes, I do realise that we need to be vigilant when it comes to hygiene. Because there is still such a thing as covid-19, and it is still very much in play for 2022.

But the biggest challenge offered up this year has been our consolation prize for surviving the pandemic. Which is another global crisis thanks to Putin and his Russia. These senseless wars against Ukraine with all of those Ukrainian lives that have either been unnecessarily lost or those lives that have been permanently altered which have been rightly condemned. But I'm sure that some of you will be noticing the blowback to all these Russian boycotts. First and foremost, being the energy crisis.

One of my many questions regarding this latest piece of 2020's utopia has been: "exactly how did we get to this point where Russia control pretty much the entire world's supply of fuel and gas". And "How did we not see events like this coming?" You know, given that it is Putin of all people? And no matter how hard people try to rationalize this, it only serves to trigger my anxiety levels. Whilst also affecting my anger levels. And while of course, I cannot ignore my old friend, depression.

Yes, I have actually now found a way to make fuel prices become a major trigger my depression. I find myself often needing to take something like Ativan in order to calm my nerves right down whenever I have to pass those horrible red lights displaying those hideous prices as I drive past a bowser.

In Australia, we had our previous government implement the cutting of the fuel excise in half. But that only worked for, and I am guessing three weeks? And since then, even with a new car. I am dreading how much worse this is going to get. How much of a devastating effect this will have going on to other industries. Will we see another recession? Is our life, as we know it going to completely collapse?

So my question to the readers of the Mighty is this. Am I the only one who is feeling this way? Are there other readers who have had their mental health impacted by this latest global crisis? Are there any readers who are just totally bewildered that we find ourselves in this situation? Does it seem like there is nothing but crises jumping to the next set of crises? Especially given what has happened over the last few years?

Because to no one's surprise. I tend to struggle really badly to justify daily life at the best of times. But the last few years have greatly accelerated or greatly triggered my thoughts when it comes to doom and gloom.

I would be interested to hear anyones thoughts or feedback relating to this article. Just if I am full of shit, or that my priorities aren’t in order please just tell me nicely.

Oh and fuck Putin!

Christopher

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Is this global energy crisis affecting people mentally?

I think that it is important for an early disclosure. This may only just be a "me thing", but 2022 has just been every bit as challenging and every bit as tough as the covid years. And yes, I do realise that we need to be vigilant when it comes to hygiene. Because there is still such a thing as covid-19, and it is still very much in play for 2022.

But the biggest challenge offered up this year has been our consolation prize for surviving the pandemic. Which is another global crisis thanks to Putin and his Russia. These senseless wars against Ukraine with all of those Ukrainian lives that have either been unnecessarily lost or those lives that have been permanently altered which have been rightly condemned. But I'm sure that some of you will be noticing the blowback to all these Russian boycotts. First and foremost, being the energy crisis.

One of my many questions regarding this latest piece of 2020's utopia has been: "exactly how did we get to this point where Russia control pretty much the entire world's supply of fuel and gas". And "How did we not see events like this coming?" You know, given that it is Putin of all people? And no matter how hard people try to rationalize this, it only serves to trigger my anxiety levels. Whilst also affecting my anger levels. And while of course, I cannot ignore my old friend, depression.

Yes, I have actually now found a way to make fuel prices become a major trigger my depression. I find myself often needing to take something like Ativan in order to calm my nerves right down whenever I have to pass those horrible red lights displaying those hideous prices as I drive past a bowser.

In Australia, we had our previous government implement the cutting of the fuel excise in half. But that only worked for, and I am guessing three weeks? And since then, even with a new car. I am dreading how much worse this is going to get. How much of a devastating effect this will have going on to other industries. Will we see another recession? Is our life, as we know it going to completely collapse?

So my question to the readers of the Mighty is this. Am I the only one who is feeling this way? Are there other readers who have had their mental health impacted by this latest global crisis? Are there any readers who are just totally bewildered that we find ourselves in this situation? Does it seem like there is nothing but crises jumping to the next set of crises? Especially given what has happened over the last few years?

Because to no one's surprise. I tend to struggle really badly to justify daily life at the best of times. But the last few years have greatly accelerated or greatly triggered my thoughts when it comes to doom and gloom.

I would be interested to hear anyones thoughts or feedback relating to this article. Just if I am full of shit, or that my priorities aren’t in order please just tell me nicely.

Oh and fuck Putin!

Christopher

17 people are talking about this
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Is this global energy crisis affecting people mentally?

I think that it is important for an early disclosure. This may only just be a "me thing", but 2022 has just been every bit as challenging and every bit as tough as the covid years. And yes, I do realise that we need to be vigilant when it comes to hygiene. Because there is still such a thing as covid-19, and it is still very much in play for 2022.

But the biggest challenge offered up this year has been our consolation prize for surviving the pandemic. Which is another global crisis thanks to Putin and his Russia. These senseless wars against Ukraine with all of those Ukrainian lives that have either been unnecessarily lost or those lives that have been permanently altered which have been rightly condemned. But I'm sure that some of you will be noticing the blowback to all these Russian boycotts. First and foremost, being the energy crisis.

One of my many questions regarding this latest piece of 2020's utopia has been: "exactly how did we get to this point where Russia control pretty much the entire world's supply of fuel and gas". And "How did we not see events like this coming?" You know, given that it is Putin of all people? And no matter how hard people try to rationalize this, it only serves to trigger my anxiety levels. Whilst also affecting my anger levels. And while of course, I cannot ignore my old friend, depression.

Yes, I have actually now found a way to make fuel prices become a major trigger my depression. I find myself often needing to take something like Ativan in order to calm my nerves right down whenever I have to pass those horrible red lights displaying those hideous prices as I drive past a bowser.

In Australia, we had our previous government implement the cutting of the fuel excise in half. But that only worked for, and I am guessing three weeks? And since then, even with a new car. I am dreading how much worse this is going to get. How much of a devastating effect this will have going on to other industries. Will we see another recession? Is our life, as we know it going to completely collapse?

So my question to the readers of the Mighty is this. Am I the only one who is feeling this way? Are there other readers who have had their mental health impacted by this latest global crisis? Are there any readers who are just totally bewildered that we find ourselves in this situation? Does it seem like there is nothing but crises jumping to the next set of crises? Especially given what has happened over the last few years?

Because to no one's surprise. I tend to struggle really badly to justify daily life at the best of times. But the last few years have greatly accelerated or greatly triggered my thoughts when it comes to doom and gloom.

I would be interested to hear anyones thoughts or feedback relating to this article. Just if I am full of shit, or that my priorities aren’t in order please just tell me nicely.

Oh and fuck Putin!

Christopher

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First of all, I think it would be appropriate to begin with a disclaimer that I am not a writer. At all. It wouldn't even be a cruel joke to even pretend that I am one.

I am however interested when it comes to the direct effect this pandemic is having on the fragile aspect of mental health. Because I don't know about you, but I feel that not only is any data hard to come by. But this is yet another subject we dare not talk about.

When it comes to my own experience, I will share that the world didn't make any sense. And that is before 2019 and before coronavirus graced all of us with its presence. And I am genuinely wondering if I am the only person that dares to wonder if this is all worth it?

I wonder if am I better off with covid finding me and just doing the decent thing and put me out of my misery? These are questions that I am still afraid to ask. Even in the age of "it's ok to not be ok", this feels like an extremely touchy subject.

Because if you ask me right now, no absolutely not. It certainly is not even remotely worth it in any way shape or form.

My reasoning is a lot similar to my logic. It all may sound simple to me. It may make all the sense to me. However I am also aware that it may sound completely complex or ridiculous to other people. Because I personally think that I would be just fine without the two thousand and twenties. I also feel like I could do without pandemics, plagues, diseases, lockdowns, restrictions or just the state of total fear that we all currently find ourselves in.

I also believe that I could get by without the general reminders regardless if it is through the media, or various other sources that the future feels completely non-existent even by the standards of severe depression. Or reminders that the world just keeps out-doing itself.

So my question is; I am alone? Am I alone when it comes to the thinking that after all of the horrors that mental health has shown me over the years. Am I alone in questioning why exactly should I be afraid of this virus?

If I am wrong, then clearly this is something that I should bring up with my doctors. Having said all that, I probably should consult with them either way after posting this.

I just wish that I wasn't such a coward. I just wish that I could actually follow through with all of the planning and all of the research involving "the end". Because even though I don't possess the sharpest memory bank. I do distinctly remember asking this question on this very site:

And that is, do people regret choosing to not go through with ending it all? It is a question that I feel is more valid than ever. Because in the spirit of honesty, yeah. You can say that I am regretting all of it.

Now if there are grammatical errors in this post, I apologise. I am not a medical expert, I am no orator. I probably don't even have a total comprehension regarding mental health, despite living with poor mental health for years.

And like all of us, I am just looking for some answers.

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First of all, I think it would be appropriate to begin with a disclaimer that I am not a writer. At all. It wouldn't even be a cruel joke to even pretend that I am one.

I am however interested when it comes to the direct effect this pandemic is having on the fragile aspect of mental health. Because I don't know about you, but I feel that not only is any data hard to come by. But this is yet another subject we dare not talk about.

When it comes to my own experience, I will share that the world didn't make any sense. And that is before 2019 and before coronavirus graced all of us with its presence. And I am genuinely wondering if I am the only person that dares to wonder if this is all worth it?

I wonder if am I better off with covid finding me and just doing the decent thing and put me out of my misery? These are questions that I am still afraid to ask. Even in the age of "it's ok to not be ok", this feels like an extremely touchy subject.

Because if you ask me right now, no absolutely not. It certainly is not even remotely worth it in any way shape or form.

My reasoning is a lot similar to my logic. It all may sound simple to me. It may make all the sense to me. However I am also aware that it may sound completely complex or ridiculous to other people. Because I personally think that I would be just fine without the two thousand and twenties. I also feel like I could do without pandemics, plagues, diseases, lockdowns, restrictions or just the state of total fear that we all currently find ourselves in.

I also believe that I could get by without the general reminders regardless if it is through the media, or various other sources that the future feels completely non-existent even by the standards of severe depression. Or reminders that the world just keeps out-doing itself.

So my question is; I am alone? Am I alone when it comes to the thinking that after all of the horrors that mental health has shown me over the years. Am I alone in questioning why exactly should I be afraid of this virus?

If I am wrong, then clearly this is something that I should bring up with my doctors. Having said all that, I probably should consult with them either way after posting this.

I just wish that I wasn't such a coward. I just wish that I could actually follow through with all of the planning and all of the research involving "the end". Because even though I don't possess the sharpest memory bank. I do distinctly remember asking this question on this very site:

And that is, do people regret choosing to not go through with ending it all? It is a question that I feel is more valid than ever. Because in the spirit of honesty, yeah. You can say that I am regretting all of it.

Now if there are grammatical errors in this post, I apologise. I am not a medical expert, I am no orator. I probably don't even have a total comprehension regarding mental health, despite living with poor mental health for years.

And like all of us, I am just looking for some answers.

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Brother committed suicide. #Anxiety #Suicide #Grief

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