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I've learned my financial stability is absolutely tied to my depressive state. I'm struggling (aren't we all right now?) and have been trying to find a different job. I had 2 interviews and both turned me down on the same day. I don't have much money in the bank and I'm paying bills with credit cards. I'm not online shopping or spending money frivolously, it's just my hourly wage stopped stretching. As such, my depression is driving the bus right now. I'm a few months from completing a certificate that will open up a new job career but I just don't know how to make it until then.

I've learned my financial stability is absolutely tied to my depressive state. I'm struggling (aren't we all right now?) and have been trying to find a different job. I had 2 interviews and both turned me down on the same day. I don't have much money in the bank and I'm paying bills with credit cards. I'm not online shopping or spending money frivolously, it's just my hourly wage stopped stretching. As such, my depression is driving the bus right now. I'm a few months from completing a certificate that will open up a new job career but I just don't know how to make it until then.

Does anyone have a way of explaining BPD for when people give that "look" when you tell them it's borderline personality disorder not bipolar?

Does anyone have a way of explaining BPD for when people give that "look" when you tell them it's borderline personality disorder not bipolar?

I've discovered recently the state of the world absolutely drives and controls my depression. I'm listless, despondent and basically just existing.

My house has become a depression den. It's dark without much light, cooled by A/C and I'm spending days snuggling my doggos in bed under the blankets.

I have company coming in a week and I need to clean my house. I just can't seem to find the energy and, to be honest, it's dirty enough that it's somewhat overwhelming at this point.

Before I got on meds, my depressive mania cycles helped me keep my house clean. Lately, I've become Eeyore with a "why bother?" attitude. I've gotten a med adjustment recently for my anti-depressant but it hasn't changed anything.

I tried to clean yesterday and seriously looked at everything and said I'll do it later this week.

Does anyone have any suggestions on how to get my head into cleaning even one area to get the ball rolling? I feel like once I get started, I'll be good but I can't seem to find any reason to do so.

#Addiction

I'm 4 years sober. I've been trying to manage osteoarthritis of my lower back and nerve damage with non-narcotic prescriptions and OTCs. I've discovered I'm now starting to abuse the non-narcotics in an effort to make the pain manageable. Is there a point where narcotic medications are acceptable when in sobriety? I've been battling this pain for 2 years without them but I'm beginning to feel like I'm running out of options. The pain is immobilizing and I'm slowly becoming bedridden because it hurts so much to walk.

#Anxiety

Every day, without fail (and without reason), my body goes through a physical panic attack. I can be having a great day, things going well and... suddenly... pulse is elevated, ears ringing, it's difficult to focus, just a full body attack.

I've worked with my provider to adjust medications but I can't seem to get around it.

Does this happen to anyone else?

#Anxiety

Every day, without fail (and without reason), my body goes through a physical panic attack. I can be having a great day, things going well and... suddenly... pulse is elevated, ears ringing, it's difficult to focus, just a full body attack.

I've worked with my provider to adjust medications but I can't seem to get around it.

Does this happen to anyone else?