Cyndi Christina

My three self-care daily needs:
Physical—shower. Although sometimes it’s hard to get past the Fibro and arthritis pain, I’m usually still capable of getting up and around, so unless I’m unable to get out of bed a shower is an absolute must.
Mental—reading and meditation . If I don’t get 15-30 minutes of reading time in the morning, my whole day feels off. No matter the genre or length of book, that short period of time in another world resets my brain for the day. We recently found a Buddhist meditation center/temple close to where we live, and right around the block from where I work. They allow chairs, so I can take my comfortable folding camp chair, and they have a meditation/dhamma talk scheduled multiple times each week at different times of day. We try to go at least once a week, and that also helps with my anxiety by allowing me to center and relax. Bonus physical too because when I’m more relaxed and less tense, there’s less pain.
Emotional—mantra. “May you be well, may you be happy, may you be peaceful.” Any time I start to stress, get angry, or anxious, I repeat that, and it helps me calm and center. The pain doesn’t go away, but it usually helps keep it from getting worse.

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I was so proud of myself for getting self care in. The first day since diagnosis that I had stretched, meditated, read. I even took my first 15 min walk since I honestly can’t remember or tell you when. I may over pushed it. I got two loads of laundry done. One which i folded, and then I lightly cleaned my small tiny bathroom. That’s when I realized I’d probably regret it... I was exhausted even though I paced myself. A straw to break my back...
I thought I was going to be ok because I wasn’t feeling the regular build of tension. In fact my pain wasn’t really there.
It was a bad night with both my infant and toddler. How many times were they up? I don’t think I got one REM cycle in. But. I had to wake my husband every time. I couldn’t. get. out. of. bed. And he just got more and more mad at the situation. He usually takes the toddler and I the baby. It’s a team effort... but for 3 nights now the kids have been like this... and my body feels like a truck hit it. Like I have the flu. And I feel bad I can’t get out of bed right now while he feeds the kids breakfast...
will this “movement” self care get better? Was it that made me hurt so bad?

I feel so out of place. I have class later and I’m dreading it. Just the thought of being in a conference makes my heart race, my hands sweat and God forbid they ask me to speak. I came so far in school and I’m finally in Nursing. Nursing has always been my dream job but I really feel like quitting. Please keep me in your prayers.
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Sooo i’ve been on a few dates with this guy, he’s super nice and seems to really like me but it’s just so frustrating. He always is asking to hangout and see me and i was completely honest with him about my fibromyalgia and told him that i would have to cancel plans sometimes and he seemed okay with it. but now i keep trying to explain to him how stiff and in pain i am this morning, i couldn’t even get myself to get out of bed, and he keeps saying oh well that’s fine i’ll still come over, but i’m the type of person who would much rather be alone when i’m in pain...what do i do? is he just being nice or is he just completely ignoring what i have to say about my body? how do i make him understand that this isn’t just soreness this is extremely painful? #Fibromyalgia #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain