Emily Koenigbauer

@emilykoenigbauer
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Shout out to anyone who is depressed right now.

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Chronic pain dismissed by doctor

I went and saw a rheumatologist yesterday because of some physical symptoms I've been having. Specifically, my knee locks and I have to kick it really hard to make it unlock and then it's sore and tender for days. I also have pain in my knees, ankles, low back, upper back, shoulders, neck, and jaw. My primary care provider referred me to this Doctor when I told her I was concerned that I may have joint hyper mobility and am interested in figuring out what is causing my discomfort.

At my appointment, I had no visible signs of inflammation, so the specialist told me there was no need for testing for rheumatological conditions. She did note that my joints are hyper mobile and recommended genetic testing for that. When she touched and put pressure on my joints, it felt very odd and twitchy. Almost like an electric feeling. All she said was "there's some crunching but no inflammation."

When she saw in my chart that I used to be on antidepressants and a mood stabilizer, she asked "who's idea was it for you to go off of those medications?" and I told her my own. She asked if my pain was better when I was on them and I said I am here for physical health, not mental, and I have a therapist who I see regularly.

She recommended taking tylenol, and I told her I prefer not to. Then she said "well if you don't even need tylenol...." suggesting that many pain is not bad. I insisted "No, it's not that I don't need it, I prefer natural methods such as cannabis and resting when I need to." She became very dismissive after that and basically just told me that nothing is physically wrong and to go see my therapist.

Does anyone have any advice on where to look for help next?? I'm getting desperate.

#CheckInWithMe #ChronicPain #hypermobity #medicalgaslighting
#neurodivergent
#ADHD

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#Bipolar or #Borderline Personality Disorder?

Please give me advice on what to do - I’ve been diagnosed with both of the above disorders approximately 5 years ago, and I managed to stay stable since the diagnosis, until now… I need advice on what to do.
I went through an incredibly difficult 3.5 years (which included going through physical and emotional abuse) and did everything I could to keep it together, but now things are starting to come undone and it’s affecting my everyday life.
I cannot sleep at night, I self-medicate with alcohol, I’ve spent all of my savings on luxury clothing over a period of three months, I’ve been incredibly aggressive in my relationship for very little reason - I have the most intense rage at the most inappropriate of times. They get so bad that I don’t even remember the full sequence of events or what I may have said or done.
Anyone with advice on what I can do?

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Chronic pain dismissed by doctor

I went and saw a rheumatologist yesterday because of some physical symptoms I've been having. Specifically, my knee locks and I have to kick it really hard to make it unlock and then it's sore and tender for days. I also have pain in my knees, ankles, low back, upper back, shoulders, neck, and jaw. My primary care provider referred me to this Doctor when I told her I was concerned that I may have joint hyper mobility and am interested in figuring out what is causing my discomfort.

At my appointment, I had no visible signs of inflammation, so the specialist told me there was no need for testing for rheumatological conditions. She did note that my joints are hyper mobile and recommended genetic testing for that. When she touched and put pressure on my joints, it felt very odd and twitchy. Almost like an electric feeling. All she said was "there's some crunching but no inflammation."

When she saw in my chart that I used to be on antidepressants and a mood stabilizer, she asked "who's idea was it for you to go off of those medications?" and I told her my own. She asked if my pain was better when I was on them and I said I am here for physical health, not mental, and I have a therapist who I see regularly.

She recommended taking tylenol, and I told her I prefer not to. Then she said "well if you don't even need tylenol...." suggesting that many pain is not bad. I insisted "No, it's not that I don't need it, I prefer natural methods such as cannabis and resting when I need to." She became very dismissive after that and basically just told me that nothing is physically wrong and to go see my therapist.

Does anyone have any advice on where to look for help next?? I'm getting desperate.

#CheckInWithMe #ChronicPain #hypermobity #medicalgaslighting
#neurodivergent
#ADHD

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When It’s all enough

When is enough, enough? I’ve been dealing with crippling anxiety for thr past 8 months. My stomach constantly hurts because of it and living at my parents doesn’t help my anxiety either.

I feel like I’m walking on eggshells around them. My mom, all she does is manipulate and gas light and my dad, well, he doesn’t believe in mental health issues. I have no car, no job because Of my anxiety. Although i did apply for disability, I’m just waiting for their decision.

I’ve had enough. It’s all too much for me any more. I’m not suicidal, I just can’t deal with it anymore and wish I could just leave. I’m stuck here though. The only escape I do have is writing, reading, and photography.

I’m close to a breaking point. I’m frustrated and fed up with how things are at my parents house and my life. Anxiety has taken so much from me. I’m angry. It was never like this, but now, I’m scared to even go outside and walk. I’m also dealing with post Covid symptoms and can hardly walk far without struggling to breathe.

I’m just over so much right now and want better for myself and my well being. I deserve at least that much. #Anxiety

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I’m new here!

Hi, my name is Brian. I'm here because
I suffered from Anxiety and depression. I want to share my experience and also learn how to assist other fight whatever they are going through.
#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Migraine

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How do other people manage to support a loved one through their depression?

<p>How do other people manage to support a loved one through their depression?</p>
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Klera

I just want to end it all

I hate to admit these things but I'm unbelievably unhappy somewhere I was the happiest before. One day I just saw the devil's face after ignoring all the red flags for years.
I'm just too tired, feeling stuck and I lost my ability to see the beauty in little things. I feel this massive pain in my soul or I just don't feel anything at all. I'm so lonely even around others.
I feel like a shadow that's following other people's expectations. I try to fake I'm okay but I don't even know what feeling okay means. But I don't even know how to live different.
The harder I try to help my mental health to be able to navigate through these troubled times, the more I realize what death is. Not closing your eyes forever but losing your hope and faith in others, in yourself and in life in general.
I'd really like to just end this misery and with all my good memories just dream forever.
I regret not ending it 10+ years ago. I wish I didn't feel this way but the only thing that's constant in my life is this feeling, especially around people who trigger me. He's one. He's the reason. Before him I was getting better. He makes me feel worthless and he just doesn't respect my fears, pain and boundaries. It's so devastating, I could scream. It's a prison and it's too late to set myself free. I have none to trust, nowhere to feel safe.

#Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #Anxiety

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Is anyone to the point where they always have anxiety? I am having physical symptoms of shortness of breath and trembling as well as paranoia.

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Is anyone to the point where they always have anxiety? I am having physical symptoms of shortness of breath and trembling as well as paranoia.

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