Enola

“Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.”

So I’ve been listening to this podcast, title is the title of this thought. But anyway... I’m listening and he’s making a lot of valid points and the things that he’s saying make sense in the long scheme of things. But I’m having trouble understanding how to apply this to my life tbh. #Podcasts #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #Grief

I just did this very intense and very advance yoga lol it was so hard and I had to stop a few times to catch my breath. BUT I finished it and I feel amazing. 🥰 I needed that more than I realized. #Yoga

So yesterday I feel like I got a lot done. I went out, came home and organized some stuff. I worked out. I cooked. And I helped my “friend” with something he needed help with all while dealing with the fact that this “friend” is someone I think I want to be with... relationship wise but also just found out yesterday the gender of his child. This is the same friend I’ve been posting about for a while now. ANYWAY.... the entire time he’s out with her and I’m doing this thing for him... he’s flirting with me. And I know I KNOW I shouldn’t allow it. BUT maybe my ex was right.... I have no morals. Or at the very least as Halsey has once said “I’ve got a long way to go until self preservation. THINK MY MORAL COMPASS IS ON A VACATION. And I can’t believe I still feed my f****** temptation. I’m still looking for my salvation.” #Depression #PTSD #Anxiety #Relationships #morals #Loss #Grief

So yesterday I feel like I got a lot done. I went out, came home and organized some stuff. I worked out. I cooked. And I helped my “friend” with something he needed help with all while dealing with the fact that this “friend” is someone I think I want to be with... relationship wise but also just found out yesterday the gender of his child. This is the same friend I’ve been posting about for a while now. ANYWAY.... the entire time he’s out with her and I’m doing this thing for him... he’s flirting with me. And I know I KNOW I shouldn’t allow it. BUT maybe my ex was right.... I have no morals. Or at the very least as Halsey has once said “I’ve got a long way to go until self preservation. THINK MY MORAL COMPASS IS ON A VACATION. And I can’t believe I still feed my f****** temptation. I’m still looking for my salvation.” #Depression #PTSD #Anxiety #Relationships #morals #Loss #Grief

“Be not afraid of growing slowly; be afraid only of standing still.”

I got a bad haircut and can’t stop thinking about it. It is consuming me. I feel so ugly. I trusted someone and they ruined one of the only things I had going for me.

“A good archer is known not by his arrows but by his aim.” — Thomas Fuller