Heather

@hmr1985az
Anxiety/Depression Warrior. PTSD (undiagnosed). Insomnia Walker. Healing Journey Driver. Therapy Client. Journal Writing Advocate. Watercolor Creator. Silverlining Enthusiast. A voice for the shaken.
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Story Time

<p>Story Time</p>
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Needed Space...

.... to get the thoughts out of head & I'm not a fan of "notes" on the phone.

Here I sit in my car, church parking lot, due to work & the thoughts of anxiety are consuming so much space.
I've noticed the emotions since yesterday & allowed myself to just sit & recognize what my mind & body was trying to tell me.

Last Sunday I returned home from my very first out of state solo trip. Drove 13 hrs from AZ to CO & that was beyond needed. Idk why I allowed self-sabotage to control me for so long. Once I got back, I felt my depression creep in for a day or two. Got that under controlled.

This past Friday I felt my anxiety try to come & play during work. I fought it off due to being at work & not wanting to cause a scene. That night it was good. Went out & saw The Lion King Musical for the first time. Loved it. That calmed the nerves.

Today, I can feel every emotion trying to creep its way back in. I'm trying to remember techniques I've been shared yet some are not quite what is needed.

Tuesday is my session after having a week off. I can not wait for it. Much needed. This therapist has been such a blessing in disguise. Opened so many doors, good & bad, yet the bad has put a lot into perspective. Always looking for the positive in a negative situation. Always reasoning behind actions... I believe.

My mind & body is just full of so much right now. Trying to sit with everything yet trying to push some emotions to the side is exhausting. Remembering I'm at work is what's keeping me from crashing to my knees.

Ya'll, mental illness is not for the weak. This ish is hard.... & I will not be giving up nor giving in. I will come thru on top. I will define my life. This constant "battle" will not.

If you've made it thus far, you're the real mvp. I was just trying to calm thy thoughts the way I know how. Thank you. 🖤

#Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #Trauma #selfsabotage #Migraines #Healing #Therapy #Insomnia #Chatspace #CheckInWithMe #GAD

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Today's Therapy Session..

.... opened up some wounds. Ate me alive. Blew my mind. Put shit into perspective.

Attachment Styles was the main topic after talking about roadtrip anxieties.

Y'all, I'm part of the "fearful" group of Attachment Styles. & when I was reading it, my heart sank to the floor. Made complete sense.

Now, here I lay on my bed trying to put all these emotions/thoughts/feelings on paper yet nothing is happening.

I wanted this journey. I'm going to fight this journey.

To my inner child, I'm sorry. You're safe now. You're more loved than before. You're protected. I love you.

#Anxiety #Depression #Insomnia #Therapy #Migraines #Healing #GAD #CheckInWithMe #PTSD #Trauma

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Today's Therapy Session..

.... opened up some wounds. Ate me alive. Blew my mind. Put shit into perspective.

Attachment Styles was the main topic after talking about roadtrip anxieties.

Y'all, I'm part of the "fearful" group of Attachment Styles. & when I was reading it, my heart sank to the floor. Made complete sense.

Now, here I lay on my bed trying to put all these emotions/thoughts/feelings on paper yet nothing is happening.

I wanted this journey. I'm going to fight this journey.

To my inner child, I'm sorry. You're safe now. You're more loved than before. You're protected. I love you.

#Anxiety #Depression #Insomnia #Therapy #Migraines #Healing #GAD #CheckInWithMe #PTSD #Trauma

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Today's Car Talk...

<p>Today's Car Talk...</p>
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Today's Car Talk...

<p>Today's Car Talk...</p>
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Reminder Alarms

..... who has their "alarms" section of their phone set with reminders?! For example, an alarm set to get outside.
An alarm set to go to the gym.
An alarm set to do a small task you've been trying to accomplish yet that ugly depression cloud has been hovering over for quite some time.
An alarm to do one of your favorite hobbies.
An alarm set to write in your journal.
An alarm set to basically be productive..

My therapist has mentioned it to me. My random thoughts have also mentioned it to me yet that silly anxiety/depression of overwhelming distracts me & my alarm section remains empty.

I wanna start being more productive after work & on wknds yet I come home & just lay on my bed. I don't like that feeling. That's not who I am. My laundry has been clean in my basket for months. I just add to it. My art desk is a mess with random junk when it was originally clean with a project to start each week. My apt is dirty. More dusty than dirty. I've been falling back into that dark space & I need to get out.

I've been looking on pinterest for small activities to do around town. Indoors. Restaurants to continue trying. Art projects to try. Healing/Shadow work journal prompts. Yet, here I sit on my bed on my phone..

I can't be the only one with wanting my alarm section to be full of reminders yet leave it blank & hoping this grey cloud moves from above soon?!

#Anxiety #Depression #GAD #Insomnia #Therapy #Healing #Migraines #Trauma #PTSD #CheckInWithMe

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Reminder Alarms

..... who has their "alarms" section of their phone set with reminders?! For example, an alarm set to get outside.
An alarm set to go to the gym.
An alarm set to do a small task you've been trying to accomplish yet that ugly depression cloud has been hovering over for quite some time.
An alarm to do one of your favorite hobbies.
An alarm set to write in your journal.
An alarm set to basically be productive..

My therapist has mentioned it to me. My random thoughts have also mentioned it to me yet that silly anxiety/depression of overwhelming distracts me & my alarm section remains empty.

I wanna start being more productive after work & on wknds yet I come home & just lay on my bed. I don't like that feeling. That's not who I am. My laundry has been clean in my basket for months. I just add to it. My art desk is a mess with random junk when it was originally clean with a project to start each week. My apt is dirty. More dusty than dirty. I've been falling back into that dark space & I need to get out.

I've been looking on pinterest for small activities to do around town. Indoors. Restaurants to continue trying. Art projects to try. Healing/Shadow work journal prompts. Yet, here I sit on my bed on my phone..

I can't be the only one with wanting my alarm section to be full of reminders yet leave it blank & hoping this grey cloud moves from above soon?!

#Anxiety #Depression #GAD #Insomnia #Therapy #Healing #Migraines #Trauma #PTSD #CheckInWithMe

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Reminder Alarms

..... who has their "alarms" section of their phone set with reminders?! For example, an alarm set to get outside.
An alarm set to go to the gym.
An alarm set to do a small task you've been trying to accomplish yet that ugly depression cloud has been hovering over for quite some time.
An alarm to do one of your favorite hobbies.
An alarm set to write in your journal.
An alarm set to basically be productive..

My therapist has mentioned it to me. My random thoughts have also mentioned it to me yet that silly anxiety/depression of overwhelming distracts me & my alarm section remains empty.

I wanna start being more productive after work & on wknds yet I come home & just lay on my bed. I don't like that feeling. That's not who I am. My laundry has been clean in my basket for months. I just add to it. My art desk is a mess with random junk when it was originally clean with a project to start each week. My apt is dirty. More dusty than dirty. I've been falling back into that dark space & I need to get out.

I've been looking on pinterest for small activities to do around town. Indoors. Restaurants to continue trying. Art projects to try. Healing/Shadow work journal prompts. Yet, here I sit on my bed on my phone..

I can't be the only one with wanting my alarm section to be full of reminders yet leave it blank & hoping this grey cloud moves from above soon?!

#Anxiety #Depression #GAD #Insomnia #Therapy #Healing #Migraines #Trauma #PTSD #CheckInWithMe

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Road Trip...

<p>Road Trip...</p>
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