I am writing this today to give hope to someone that it is never too late to do something you want to do and that if you fall down, it's always worth getting back up.
I have a long standing mental illness. I struggle a lot everyday and have done so for as long as I can remember. I am 29 and I have recently graduated with a psychology degree after three attempts and a journey of 11 years. It all started when I finished my A Levels and planned to go to the university that I had set my heart on going to. It was a really good university and it was doing a subject I loved. I was so excited and planned accordingly to move into halls and start the next chapter of my life. However it came to the night before I was meant to leave and I just couldn't do it. I lay down on the floor crying my eyes out and I mentally felt this block stopping me from even thinking of going to the university the next day. I decided I couldn't do it, my anxiety was so high I felt like my mind was going to explode.
I decided to go to a local university and study a subject I kinda liked but it was important to know I could go home at the end of the day. I did well I attended and completed all my assignments. However I had this nagging feeling that I had to try again to go to my dream university. So I applied and this time I did go and moved into halls and hated it. I moved back home pretty quickly and did the four hour round trip each day to attend. Unfortunately this lead to a breakdown and I had to quit university for the second time. I was diagnosed with EUPD and hit rock bottom. I attempted suicide and decided life wasn't worth living. However university became my goal to work towards to get better for. I was determined to finally graduate and get my degree. It took me five years to rebuild my life and feel strong enough to apply for a different university this time studying Psychology. This time I managed to graduate I won't lie it was hard. I struggled with my mental health and realised pretty early on that I didn't want to go into a psychology career. However I became so determined to finish for myself. This was my hurdle I had to get over. For 11 years all I thought about was completing university and proving to myself I could do it. I did it I graduated and realised I was a stonger person that I gave myself credit. To those reading who don't believe they can YOU CAN. It make take forever tto do it but that doesn't matter. If I can do it so can you. #MentalHealth #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #EUPD #Anxiety #Depression