Jennifer Gaume

@jennifergaume1
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Knock me down

My husband just has this way of making me feel oh so wonderful. Tonight he was nice enough to point out that the only people in my life who care/caref about me were my parents and him. I'm going to be 40 next month. I'm sitting her now on the verge of tears listingeveryone who has cared/cares about me. Like i need to proce what he said is wrong because part of me believes it. Damn you depression I know his statement is WRONG!!! So why is depression brain believing him?#depressionbrain #CheckInWithMe

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Let me start by saying I want to be here. I’ve got so much to be here for and I’m grateful everyday for those things. Now let me say, I’m so tired. I’m tired of being sick. I’m tired of fighting the fatigue, the depression, the pain. I’m tired of fighting all these invisible battles. I’m tired of feeling like a burden. I’m tired of feeling as though my family would be better off without me. Sometimes I just want to give up. I don’t want to die. I just don’t always know how to keep going.

Ok now I can take a few deep breaths and carry on.

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LET’S TALK: What do YOU need most right now?

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Is anyone else angry?

I realized today that I’m not just depressed or sad.
I’m angry.
I’m angry that my clothes don’t fit anymore, because my meds made me gain weight.
I’m angry that I can’t work out because of the pain I’m in.
I’m angry that nothing ever seems to change.
I’m angry that therapists and doctors think they know everything.
I’m angry that I am a disappointment as a sister,a daughter and a granddaughter.
I’m angry that when I look in the mirror I don’t see myself anymore.
I’m angry that this is my life.
Finally,I’m angry that I’m angry.
#Fibromyalgia #Depression #BipolarDisorder #Endometriosis #Anxiety #PTSD #ChronicIllness

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Does it ever feel like others don’t want you to get better? #Lupus #AntiphospholipidSyndrome #sjogrens #HemolyticAnemia

Has anybody ever had a family member or loved one that seems to thrive on your illness? I have a loved one that seems to get some sort of fulfillment out of being around me while I’m ill. Legitimately this person has been of some help in my harder times. But this person also goes around telling everyone that’ll listen about my health issues. It’s like they’re just “helping” for attention. Is there such a thing as a martyr complex?

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How do I get my mother to move out?

My mother, like me, has anxiety and depression. Unlike me, she thinks her’s is under control without medication. My mother has lived with me, my husband, and my 2-1/2 year old since he was born. I had a very high risk pregnancy with my laundry list of autoimmune diseases. She’s been invaluable when I’ve been sick and recuperating. On the other hand she is the source of immense stress and frustration, which is the biggest triggers for my Lupus. We snap at each other but I’m the only one who apologizes. We’ve become toxic to each other but she just won’t leave. I miss the relationship we had...

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