Jonston

@jonston
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I’m new here!

Hi, my name is perturb. I'm here because
I'm trying to get my control back. I'm thinking that by sharing my thoughts and feelings with anyone who may understand my struggles and are not bias because they haven't experienced depression would be helpful.
#MightyTogether #Depression #Migraine

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is Marzena. I'm here because I feel isolated whilst fighting for stability against bipolar 1 and living on a remote Scottish island .I guess I am looking for a reassurance that I am not alone .I am eager to give the same reassurance to others .Thank you .

#MightyTogether

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A Small Glimpse Into My Journey with Depression

I once read somewhere that being depressed is like living in a constant fog. At times the fog is overwhelming and seems endless. Then there are times when it lightened and is more manageable.

I believe that everyone's mental health journey is their own. Although I respect the author's experience, mine is different. I feel like the world around me is covered in a fog; My loved ones, friends, co-workers, etc. I stand alone in a clearing. Only I can see this fog that surrounds me, covering everyone and everything I see.

Most of my family and friends tell me things like, "You are the strongest person I know, So many people love you, You light every room", and the list goes on and on. They also remind me of how much I have overcome and survived. If I can make it through those circumstances, I can do anything.

There are days when I wake up and feel like the powerful badass survive that they all believe me to be. Although, the majority of the time, I am standing alone in the clearing. I am unable to recognize how they seem to see me. Even if some parts of my brain register those thoughts, the crippling pain I am experiencing consumes the positivity. Where I am standing, I am overwhelmed by every trauma, pain, and experience that I have lived.

My fight is daily. I am constantly struggling to survive. I wake up, go to work, paint a smile, and put on a performance. I perform so that you like me. I make you laugh so that you don't see the pain that lies just beneath the surface. It is how I survive. At the same time, those performances exhaust me. That is why, at times, I completely shut myself off from the world. During this shutdown, I am regaining my strength. Then I repeat the cycle all over again.

Unfortunately, I have learned that when you let people see the cracks, they run away. It is not always because they don't care. They believe if they don't know how to help, then if they leave, you will feel better. The truth is, that is one of the worst feelings in the world. When the people you care about, see your pain, then walk out of your life.

The strength that it takes to show people your truest self is unmatched. The only thing most of struggling needs from our loved ones is for you to be present. We need you to be able to listen to us, give us a shoulder to cry on, and honestly simply love us. You do not need to have profound wisdom or give us all the answers to life. We just want to know that we are not alone. Is that all anyone wants in this life? #Depression #Life #Survivor

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A Small Glimpse Into My Journey with Depression

I once read somewhere that being depressed is like living in a constant fog. At times the fog is overwhelming and seems endless. Then there are times when it lightened and is more manageable.

I believe that everyone's mental health journey is their own. Although I respect the author's experience, mine is different. I feel like the world around me is covered in a fog; My loved ones, friends, co-workers, etc. I stand alone in a clearing. Only I can see this fog that surrounds me, covering everyone and everything I see.

Most of my family and friends tell me things like, "You are the strongest person I know, So many people love you, You light every room", and the list goes on and on. They also remind me of how much I have overcome and survived. If I can make it through those circumstances, I can do anything.

There are days when I wake up and feel like the powerful badass survive that they all believe me to be. Although, the majority of the time, I am standing alone in the clearing. I am unable to recognize how they seem to see me. Even if some parts of my brain register those thoughts, the crippling pain I am experiencing consumes the positivity. Where I am standing, I am overwhelmed by every trauma, pain, and experience that I have lived.

My fight is daily. I am constantly struggling to survive. I wake up, go to work, paint a smile, and put on a performance. I perform so that you like me. I make you laugh so that you don't see the pain that lies just beneath the surface. It is how I survive. At the same time, those performances exhaust me. That is why, at times, I completely shut myself off from the world. During this shutdown, I am regaining my strength. Then I repeat the cycle all over again.

Unfortunately, I have learned that when you let people see the cracks, they run away. It is not always because they don't care. They believe if they don't know how to help, then if they leave, you will feel better. The truth is, that is one of the worst feelings in the world. When the people you care about, see your pain, then walk out of your life.

The strength that it takes to show people your truest self is unmatched. The only thing most of struggling needs from our loved ones is for you to be present. We need you to be able to listen to us, give us a shoulder to cry on, and honestly simply love us. You do not need to have profound wisdom or give us all the answers to life. We just want to know that we are not alone. Is that all anyone wants in this life? #Depression #Life #Survivor

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Games People Play

Ulterior Motives,. Hidden Agenda's. Causes UnTrust in other people and triggers my PTSD. I DO NOT TRUST anyone because my life is and has continually been tested by narcissistic individuals, or those who live for Drama, Gossip, and to start TROUBLE amongst a group of people. I think it's fair to say that WE ALL know at least One of these "type" of people. Most of these people do not go for help,. ie. Therapy because in THEIR MIND they don't have a problem,. It's everyone else who needs help ! That is why this widespread personality issue will always remain prevalent throughout society. Because of this, and when I come across an individual who starts asking too many personal questions,. My PTSD kicks in, red flags go up along with my invisible wall,and my blood pressure. These people will purposely talk badly about certain others in hope to get the targeted individual/s to JOIN IN on their negative assault, to only go report YOUR comments back to those they just verbally bashed. Amazing!

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Tired of Being Tired

Hey y'all.
It's been a week already and it's only Wednesday.
I have a number of issues I deal with. In my walk as a Christian, there are times I struggle. I'm in a valley where I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of trying to take care of myself. I'm tired of swallowing a handful of pills every day that is supposed to make me function and just makes me feel icky. Tired of being a pin cushion as I take multiple insulin shots every day. Just tired of tired. Normally I'm optimistic, but this week has just been horrible. What do you do to keep pushing through when it's the last thing you want to do??

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Tired of being so tired

If it’s too hot, I get exhausted. If I’m standing up too long, exhausted. If I’m sitting too long, exhausted. If I try to do anything active, exhausted.

I’m so tired of not being able to do anything. I’m never rested. I never have energy. I’m so frustrated. Everything hurts and I’m always tired.

#Depression #ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #Fatigue

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Klera

I just want to end it all

I hate to admit these things but I'm unbelievably unhappy somewhere I was the happiest before. One day I just saw the devil's face after ignoring all the red flags for years.
I'm just too tired, feeling stuck and I lost my ability to see the beauty in little things. I feel this massive pain in my soul or I just don't feel anything at all. I'm so lonely even around others.
I feel like a shadow that's following other people's expectations. I try to fake I'm okay but I don't even know what feeling okay means. But I don't even know how to live different.
The harder I try to help my mental health to be able to navigate through these troubled times, the more I realize what death is. Not closing your eyes forever but losing your hope and faith in others, in yourself and in life in general.
I'd really like to just end this misery and with all my good memories just dream forever.
I regret not ending it 10+ years ago. I wish I didn't feel this way but the only thing that's constant in my life is this feeling, especially around people who trigger me. He's one. He's the reason. Before him I was getting better. He makes me feel worthless and he just doesn't respect my fears, pain and boundaries. It's so devastating, I could scream. It's a prison and it's too late to set myself free. I have none to trust, nowhere to feel safe.

#Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #Anxiety

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Miggy

I'm new here!

Hi, my name is Miggy. I'm here because im26now and still struggling with Autism that’s why I wanted to join the group together more advice support updates. About Autism

#MightyTogether #AutismSpectrumDisorder

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