Kris Ulliman

I was doing so well and then inside my wrist flares up. I've been eating healthy and doing everything I can. This really sucks. # itchy eczema

healing your soul is more important. You cannot fix something which is broken from inside just by glueing the surface. #Healing
#Depression #fixing
#Broken #Love #MentalHealth #soul

healing your soul is more important. You cannot fix something which is broken from inside just by glueing the surface. #Healing
#Depression #fixing
#Broken #Love #MentalHealth #soul

Tremors and voices in my head wake me up at night. How I wish I can get enough sleep and be productive again.

So I’m in my second year of college and I’m a music ed major. I’m really going through it right now because I HAVE TO HAVE ALGEBRA in order to graduate. My parents don’t know and only like one person knows about this, my boyfriend doesn’t even know. I just saw my final average and I failed AGAIN for the THIRD TIME. I’m such at a loss and I feel like the biggest disappointment ever and I just feel like dropping out and not going back. I want to tell my parents but I don’t have the heart to because they’ve created this standard for me to live up too. I’m supposed to be better and smarter than my other siblings and y’all I feel like I’m really screwing up my life and my education and I feel like I’m about to have a nervous breakdown. Please please help. I have no clue what to do. I’m thinking about taking it again in the summer at the campus by my house and taking a break from math next semester. I texted my flute professor and told her everything, I’m just waiting on a reply. AND YALL, I even passed MUSIC THEORY. I thought I was going to flunk out of that for sure. I was doing so well in math too. The last test I took I got an 82 on it. I mean I don’t know where I went wrong, I studied a lot. I even studied at work last night. I mean my average before my final was at a 63% and tell me how it went down to a 57%??? I didn’t even do THAT BAD. Test anxiety is a bitch and I feel awful about myself and I just want to break down and relapse. {most don’t know but I have self harmed for a while now, but I haven’t since February} So yeah those thoughts are like hey how you doing. Anyways. :-)

Thanks 4 coming to my ted talk

#Anxiety #testanxiety #Depression #MentalHealth #Selfharm

So I’m in my second year of college and I’m a music ed major. I’m really going through it right now because I HAVE TO HAVE ALGEBRA in order to graduate. My parents don’t know and only like one person knows about this, my boyfriend doesn’t even know. I just saw my final average and I failed AGAIN for the THIRD TIME. I’m such at a loss and I feel like the biggest disappointment ever and I just feel like dropping out and not going back. I want to tell my parents but I don’t have the heart to because they’ve created this standard for me to live up too. I’m supposed to be better and smarter than my other siblings and y’all I feel like I’m really screwing up my life and my education and I feel like I’m about to have a nervous breakdown. Please please help. I have no clue what to do. I’m thinking about taking it again in the summer at the campus by my house and taking a break from math next semester. I texted my flute professor and told her everything, I’m just waiting on a reply. AND YALL, I even passed MUSIC THEORY. I thought I was going to flunk out of that for sure. I was doing so well in math too. The last test I took I got an 82 on it. I mean I don’t know where I went wrong, I studied a lot. I even studied at work last night. I mean my average before my final was at a 63% and tell me how it went down to a 57%??? I didn’t even do THAT BAD. Test anxiety is a bitch and I feel awful about myself and I just want to break down and relapse. {most don’t know but I have self harmed for a while now, but I haven’t since February} So yeah those thoughts are like hey how you doing. Anyways. :-)

Thanks 4 coming to my ted talk

#Anxiety #testanxiety #Depression #MentalHealth #Selfharm

I haven’t talked to much of my family for years, now my grandfather is dying and everyone has decided to gather for his last Christmas. I want to see my family but we’ve been so estranged that it would be so awkward meeting up again even if it wasn’t Christmas, ya know? They plan on meeting in Virginia and I’m in Florida. It’s too soon of notice and I’m scared....
So I told my aunt and my grandma I can’t go. Is that bad?