karamarie

@karamarie514
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Don't know what to say to my therapist #Anxiety #Talking #Anxiety #Epilepsy #Therapist

When I'm talking with other people I often struggle to come up with words and really have to think (a result of my seizures and brain surgery). Its even worse if my anxiety is high, and I also struggle to focus. I will look around and try to grasp onto something to look at as I come up with words. Looking at the person I'm talking to doesn't help. Today I had a therapy appointment on-line with the therapist I've been seeing for years (they are on-line now that I can't drive). We were talking about something hard for me and my anxiety was very high. I looked everywhere but at the computer. She got angry and told me I was being disrespectful to her. I didn't mean to be. The rest of the appointment I tried hard to look at the computer. And I cried, a lot. At one point she asked what I was thinking and I said I didn't know the right words. It was like she forgot about that. The rest of the day (and now night) it's been on my mind. Im extremely upset with myself. I wasn't doing anything I haven't always done. Has she thought I was disrespectful this whole time?. Did I do something wrong? Should i say (write) anything or just let it go?

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Don't know what to say to my therapist #Anxiety #Talking #Anxiety #Epilepsy #Therapist

When I'm talking with other people I often struggle to come up with words and really have to think (a result of my seizures and brain surgery). Its even worse if my anxiety is high, and I also struggle to focus. I will look around and try to grasp onto something to look at as I come up with words. Looking at the person I'm talking to doesn't help. Today I had a therapy appointment on-line with the therapist I've been seeing for years (they are on-line now that I can't drive). We were talking about something hard for me and my anxiety was very high. I looked everywhere but at the computer. She got angry and told me I was being disrespectful to her. I didn't mean to be. The rest of the appointment I tried hard to look at the computer. And I cried, a lot. At one point she asked what I was thinking and I said I didn't know the right words. It was like she forgot about that. The rest of the day (and now night) it's been on my mind. Im extremely upset with myself. I wasn't doing anything I haven't always done. Has she thought I was disrespectful this whole time?. Did I do something wrong? Should i say (write) anything or just let it go?

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Don't know what to say to my therapist #Anxiety #Talking #Anxiety #Epilepsy #Therapist

When I'm talking with other people I often struggle to come up with words and really have to think (a result of my seizures and brain surgery). Its even worse if my anxiety is high, and I also struggle to focus. I will look around and try to grasp onto something to look at as I come up with words. Looking at the person I'm talking to doesn't help. Today I had a therapy appointment on-line with the therapist I've been seeing for years (they are on-line now that I can't drive). We were talking about something hard for me and my anxiety was very high. I looked everywhere but at the computer. She got angry and told me I was being disrespectful to her. I didn't mean to be. The rest of the appointment I tried hard to look at the computer. And I cried, a lot. At one point she asked what I was thinking and I said I didn't know the right words. It was like she forgot about that. The rest of the day (and now night) it's been on my mind. Im extremely upset with myself. I wasn't doing anything I haven't always done. Has she thought I was disrespectful this whole time?. Did I do something wrong? Should i say (write) anything or just let it go?

14 people are talking about this
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Don't know what to say to my therapist #Anxiety #Talking #Anxiety #Epilepsy #Therapist

When I'm talking with other people I often struggle to come up with words and really have to think (a result of my seizures and brain surgery). Its even worse if my anxiety is high, and I also struggle to focus. I will look around and try to grasp onto something to look at as I come up with words. Looking at the person I'm talking to doesn't help. Today I had a therapy appointment on-line with the therapist I've been seeing for years (they are on-line now that I can't drive). We were talking about something hard for me and my anxiety was very high. I looked everywhere but at the computer. She got angry and told me I was being disrespectful to her. I didn't mean to be. The rest of the appointment I tried hard to look at the computer. And I cried, a lot. At one point she asked what I was thinking and I said I didn't know the right words. It was like she forgot about that. The rest of the day (and now night) it's been on my mind. Im extremely upset with myself. I wasn't doing anything I haven't always done. Has she thought I was disrespectful this whole time?. Did I do something wrong? Should i say (write) anything or just let it go?

14 people are talking about this
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Don't know what to say to my therapist #Anxiety #Talking #Anxiety #Epilepsy #Therapist

When I'm talking with other people I often struggle to come up with words and really have to think (a result of my seizures and brain surgery). Its even worse if my anxiety is high, and I also struggle to focus. I will look around and try to grasp onto something to look at as I come up with words. Looking at the person I'm talking to doesn't help. Today I had a therapy appointment on-line with the therapist I've been seeing for years (they are on-line now that I can't drive). We were talking about something hard for me and my anxiety was very high. I looked everywhere but at the computer. She got angry and told me I was being disrespectful to her. I didn't mean to be. The rest of the appointment I tried hard to look at the computer. And I cried, a lot. At one point she asked what I was thinking and I said I didn't know the right words. It was like she forgot about that. The rest of the day (and now night) it's been on my mind. Im extremely upset with myself. I wasn't doing anything I haven't always done. Has she thought I was disrespectful this whole time?. Did I do something wrong? Should i say (write) anything or just let it go?

14 people are talking about this
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Don't know what to say to my therapist #Anxiety #Talking #Anxiety #Epilepsy #Therapist

When I'm talking with other people I often struggle to come up with words and really have to think (a result of my seizures and brain surgery). Its even worse if my anxiety is high, and I also struggle to focus. I will look around and try to grasp onto something to look at as I come up with words. Looking at the person I'm talking to doesn't help. Today I had a therapy appointment on-line with the therapist I've been seeing for years (they are on-line now that I can't drive). We were talking about something hard for me and my anxiety was very high. I looked everywhere but at the computer. She got angry and told me I was being disrespectful to her. I didn't mean to be. The rest of the appointment I tried hard to look at the computer. And I cried, a lot. At one point she asked what I was thinking and I said I didn't know the right words. It was like she forgot about that. The rest of the day (and now night) it's been on my mind. Im extremely upset with myself. I wasn't doing anything I haven't always done. Has she thought I was disrespectful this whole time?. Did I do something wrong? Should i say (write) anything or just let it go?

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Therapist vacation

My therapist is going to be on vacation and at work programs for 5 weeks. I know she deserves that time. But I am terrified. I am healing physically from my 3rd brain surgery (epilepsy), but struggling to heal mentally or emotionally because there is so much more happening in life. Really fighting this depression and anxiety. And since I've had to do my appointments from home I haven't been able to talk about anything other than my surgeries and kids (I don't want others to hear me). I broke down on her and my psychiatrist this week when she made a comment about being busy. it made me feel like maybe i was wasting her time. I said maybe I should stop therapy (which I know in the back of my mind is the wrong thing to do). I have appointment as soon as she gets back that she insisted on scheduling. But that's 5 weeks away. why am I so overwhelmed that she won't be here

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Can't find the right words #Thank you #Therapy #Epilepsy #Anxiety #Depression

I can't come up with the right words for a thank-you for my therapist. Last year she started encouraging me to use my photography as a form of expression. I've always been able to share my photos, but never my nature photography. I don't know how to explain why I feel vulnerable sharing the photos I take in nature, it's how I feel talking and sharing in general. But she brought up the idea of me using my nature pictures to help others, as a sort of relaxation therapy. I like the idea, its just going to take time to work past this fear. So far its only a goal, I'm a long way off. In the meantime I made a few small books through that I want to share as a thank you to her office (to give to anyone they want, if they feel someone could benefit). I guess in a sense sharing these feels like a first step for me. I wanted to add a note with it, but can't come up with the right words. Any suggestions? (I'm still not able to see her in person, but am at the office once a week for other reasons and wanted to finally drop the books off) #Thank you #self expression #Art therapy #PTSD #Epilepsy #Depression #Anxiety

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Does anyone attend DBT groups for reasons other than BPD or bipolar? Does it help? #DBT #Epilepsy #Anxiety #Depression #eating disorder

I have epilepsy, communication disorder, depression, general anxiety, childhood ptsd, and eating disorder developed a couple years ago. I'm my 40s with a family. Everything seems to be spiraling out of control. I'm a different person than I was a few years ago. My family doesn't deserve the wife/mom they have right now. My therapist thinks I'm ready for DBT group and this time I'm willing to try (a year ago I wasn't). She says is now used for so many different issues. I attended the first two weeks, (though last week there were only 2 people due to weather). But I barely made it through, my anxiety was so high (even after meditation calming techniques). I was also worried about having a seizure while there because they have increased. It took me 3 years to be able to talk with her, let alone others. I don't know if I can go back but don't want to disappoint anyone. I don't mind the homework, its being around others I don't know if I can trust, and sharing. I don't know what to do and wonder, is this right for me? #DBT #Epilepsy #Depression #Anxiety #eating disorder #Therapist #Trust #Want to get better

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Examples of wise mind? #Therapy #DBT #Anxiety #PTSD #Epilepsy

Can anyone share examples of using wise mind (not for me to use, just to help understand)? Is it a blend of both rational and emotional, or is it a category of itself? (I understand emotional and rational, though I'm much more emotional). I've been trying for days to come up with scenarios but am afraid I am not understanding. And I have myself extremely stressed I'm not understanding (I want so bad to do this right). #DBT #Anxiety #Therapy #PTSD #Epilepsy #Depression

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