Your Favorite Scorpio

My 15 year old daughter died by suicide on March 22, 2018.
I've gone from being numb to doing great and now feeling just dead inside. I'm lost at where to turn. I've thought about going back to therapy but the cost is ridiculous. I'm to the point where I just am content sitting at home.
These are all of the current things I'm dealing with.
Attention deficit disorder
Status:Active
GAD (generalized anxiety disorder)
Status:Active
MDD (major depressive disorder), recurrent episode, moderate
Status:Active
PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder)
Status:Active
Grief reaction
Status:Active

I am the type of person that finds the worst in every situation. I am constantly thinking of all the bad things that could happen if I did something, which in turn makes me not want to do anything! I stay at home because I am too afraid to go outside and face the world. I don’t drive because I have conjured up all of these horrifying scenarios that could possibly happen. I don’t go out and be around people because of the slight possibility that something bad will happen. I am constantly deciding against things because there is a chance that something could go wrong. I am so afraid of my own happiness because of the possibility that it will be taken away. I push people away because I am afraid they are going to leave me. Every single decision I make is out of fear. It is impossible for me to grow and get better when I let my fear control my life. I just don’t know how to make it stop... #Depression #FearOfEverything