Mayalerntleben

@mayalerntleben
Female teenager, probably with undiagnosed AD(H)D▪︎I'm trying to learn more about and understand myself▪︎lives in Germany
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Do you prefer sweet or spicy?

<p>Do you prefer sweet or spicy?</p>
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Changes

I'm super scared. I really am looking forward to all of these things, but I feel so anxious.
I'm basically going to move out (student dormitory, only at home on holidays) and I'm going to visit a new school (that's the reason I'm moving). That means:
-I will have more dance classes with completly new dance teachers in new studios with new dance classmates
-new schoolbuilding&rooms
-new teachers
-new classmates
-new living place
-new living area
-new town
-new people everywhere
-new town
-new responsibilities, like beeing completly alone responsible for cleaning, feeding myself, doing the groceries, financial organisation, ...
-working for my mental wellbeing (starting therapy for the first time)
And I don't like changes. Some people maybe wouldn't believe this because I'm very flexible. But I'm still really not into the idea of changes (this confuses myself).
Some of those changes are great, for example it means a way less stimulating environment (small town instead of a big city). But it still means new enviroment. I'm also super scared of failing. I could just... not living up to the expectations of
... somebody, I guess? I don't even know, I mean, they could be just my own expectations but I don't think that I have high expectations onto myself. Or do I?
Ahhhh
#expectations #movingout #changes #anxious #SelfDoubt #overwhelmed

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I don't know what is going on

My mom asked me if I was alright. Apparently I've been looking stressed and tense for a few days. And she's wondering, since I have holidays now. I also noticed, that I'm tearing up more easily. Part of it's probably because I'm on my period, but that can't be all.

Maybe it's because I'm lacking structure now (due to the holidays).
Because we didn't go on vacation as planned. Because some really big changes are coming into my life soon.
And possibly I'm always that stressed, but she doesn't saw it until now, because I had school, dance classes, exams and a performance. So it seemed logical. But what if this is the underlying stress I always experience and the logical-stress usually adds up onto this?
I'm starting therapy in a few months but I'm so scared of all the changes (I'm going to talk about them in another post).

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What activity gives you the perfect balance of sensory stimulation?

<p>What activity gives you the perfect balance of sensory stimulation?</p>
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What 5️⃣ words best describe you?

<p>What 5️⃣ words best describe you?</p>
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How do you “pay it forward”? #52SmallThings

<p>How do you “pay it forward”? <a class="tm-topic-link mighty-topic" title="#52SmallThings: A Weekly Self-Care Challenge" href="/topic/52-small-things/" data-id="5c01a326d148bc9a5d4aefd9" data-name="#52SmallThings: A Weekly Self-Care Challenge" aria-label="hashtag #52SmallThings: A Weekly Self-Care Challenge">#52SmallThings</a> </p>
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Write a list of 10 people, places, things or ideas that are important to you.

<p>Write a list of 10 people, places, things or ideas that are important to you.</p>
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I was todays (16) years old when I...

...realised, that the german phrase "wie geht's?" (how is it going?) often doesn't NOT mean "how are you doing (feeling)?". For example it could mean something like "how are you getting on with your assignments/to-do's?".
Germany is my mother tongue and I always lived (and still do) in Germany.
#SocialInteraction #Neurodiversity #teenager

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To leave or not to leave..

<p>To leave or not to leave..</p>
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#fighting selfhate

My brain is pretty annoying sometimes (in a selfhatred-filled-selftalk way) and it is able to convince my feelings with that negativety. Than my brain realises that this was bullshit but my feelings don't.
And the self-hatred and otherwise negative feelings are staying. It hurts.

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