Michelle Austin

@meaustin91
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Keep Fighting

<p>Keep Fighting</p>
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Keep Fighting

<p>Keep Fighting</p>
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Keep Fighting

<p>Keep Fighting</p>
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Keep Fighting

<p>Keep Fighting</p>
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TIRED

When I say “I’m tired”
What I mean is…
I’m exhausted from wearing a mask.
A hollow smile that doesn’t reach my eyes
And protects against questioning stares.

When I say “I’m tired”
What I mean is…
I’m numb and everything feels too heavy.
Like every molecule, every thought, every breath of my being
is weighted with chains of doubt and insecurity,
and I’m struggling to carry them.

When I say “I’m tired”
What I mean is…
I’m overwhelmed and being buried alive under worry and anxiety.
The sheer amount of thoughts fall like an avalanche
so fast and so encompassing
that I can’t breath or find my way out.

When I say “I’m tired”
What I mean is…
I’m in pain from old wounds and traumas I thought were healed.
They can be triggered by a place, a phrase, a smell…or even nothing at all.
And they bombard me and draw blood just like bullets from a machine gun.

When I say “I’m tired”
What I mean is…
I’m losing the battle even though I seem to be winning the war.
I pick up my sword every day to keep my demons at bay,
But, today they are stronger.

When I say “I’m tired”
What I mean is…
Sleep feels like the only respite from my pain and self loathing.
You see me as lazy, laying bed all day
When really, that bed is both a haven and a prison.
I can escape from the demons in slumber
But, they trap me there as well.

When I say “I’m tired”
What I mean is…
I’m waving my white flag just for today
And tomorrow I’ll try to pick myself up again.

When I say “I’m tired”
Please understand…
I am fighting.
I am trying.
But, bad days happen
Sometimes they last for hours or weeks.
And I need time to rebuild my strength.

But know this…
I won’t be tired forever.
I will come back
Fists raised, armor on
Ready to keep fighting.

#Depression #Anxiety #tired #MentalHealthAwareness #MentalHealthAdvocacy #MentalHealth #Sickandtiredofbeingsickandtired #Poetry #Poem #MightyPoets

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