merrygoround

So tired been drinking for 6 months daily can see personality changes aggressive behaviour towards colleagues impacting work. I only drink at night and not with medication. As a nursing sister going through the latest covid stretch I am so depressed and feel suicidal but know I would never have the courage to take my life. Have been Bipolar 2 for 16 years and have never consumed alcohol like this. Need advice please #

It’s like when drinking it and you are around people it’s amazing... but then you come to the end of the night & people are wanting to go home.

All you want to do is continue drinking & drown out everything, but you can’t.

As it’s the end.

So simple but so not okay. I need more. I need to feel okay. But let’s be honest alcohol always makes you feel horrid once you are alone at home. All the things you’ve done wrong, all the things you’ve said catch up with you & then you get swallowed into a big black hole.

Time to sleep & hope tomorrow you’ll be okay, but let’s be honest, are you ever okay?

#Life #Alcohol #Depression #ItsOkNotToBeOk

I am addicted to alcohol. I spend too much on it and I find it so hard to stop this addiction. My impulse pressures me to drink almost every other day including the days when I'm broke. One time, I almost pawned a significant item just to afford alcohol. Reasons why I drink: to numb/calm from overwhelming emotions and to temporarily fill up the emptiness. I understand Bipolar Disorder is not an excuse to develop an addiction but people should also be aware how difficult it is to deal with it and that we're trying our best to fight against it.

Hi, my name is merrygoround. I’m new to The Mighty and look forward to sharing my story.

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