Mesa Fama

@mesa_fama | contributor
Mesa Fama holds a BA in Psychology from ASU, is a documentary producer, writer, mental illness stigma fighter, and suicide survivor. She is passionate about creating change in the way we have conversations about mental illness, suicide, and addiction.
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Grateful

Hello fellow survivors, so sorry I’ve been absent lately. I appreciate all of you being here and the stories you’ve been sharing. I’m so sorry that we’ve been brought together by tragedy, but I’m grateful you’re here nonetheless.

I know this time of year can be tough, at least they are for me. My mom made the holiday season magical and this is year 13 without her. My favorite holiday memory with her is the year we made all of our ornaments by hand, using construction paper, glitter, glue, and ribbons. I kept those ornaments until they crumbled. Such a small thing that’s left a nearly 30 year impact.

Do any of you have a favorite memory that you feel comfortable sharing? I find it easier to think about the best times rather than the ending we were left with. Know that I’m wishing each of you peace for your hearts and minds. Please feel free to share or reach out if needed.

Take care of yourselves and each other ♥️ #SuicideLossSurvivor

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Recent shocking loss #OurSideOfSuicide

My cousin (more like a brother) sadly took his own life on Monday. I don’t know how to feel. What to do, how to respond. I feel completely devastated and totally numb all at the same time.
If there are any support groups or counselling services you can recommend please do. I know I need help
To get through this and can’t seek that from my family x

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Grateful

Hello fellow survivors, so sorry I’ve been absent lately. I appreciate all of you being here and the stories you’ve been sharing. I’m so sorry that we’ve been brought together by tragedy, but I’m grateful you’re here nonetheless.

I know this time of year can be tough, at least they are for me. My mom made the holiday season magical and this is year 13 without her. My favorite holiday memory with her is the year we made all of our ornaments by hand, using construction paper, glitter, glue, and ribbons. I kept those ornaments until they crumbled. Such a small thing that’s left a nearly 30 year impact.

Do any of you have a favorite memory that you feel comfortable sharing? I find it easier to think about the best times rather than the ending we were left with. Know that I’m wishing each of you peace for your hearts and minds. Please feel free to share or reach out if needed.

Take care of yourselves and each other ♥️ #SuicideLossSurvivor

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Finding Out My Stroke Symptoms Were Really Hemiplegic Migraine

We were out to dinner to celebrate our daughter’s birthday. I had migraine starting out the evening, but fought on through and painted on my smile. My many medical conditions make daily living a gargantuan task and my pain levels are always high. I am lucky if I can physically get out of bed each morning, but today I had forced myself up and out. As the meals arrived I did not want to eat as I was starting to feel nauseous. I needed a quiet dark room, not a packed, noisy and bright restaurant. Gosh it was bright; the lights were glaring! I made it home and straight into bed. I was in absolute agony. I managed to mumble an unusual request that scared my family. They know I am I fighter. The pain I am in daily, I have gotten so good at hiding from the world, but not from them. I asked, “if I still had this migraine in the morning could I go to hospital because it is so severe.” My family went into emergency mode and rushed me to hospital. They did not call an ambulance because we lived so remotely. It would have been over an hour before the ambulance got to us, due to our location, and by that time they could be at the hospital with me in the car. I was getting rapidly worse throughout the journey. My speech was slurred if I had energy to speak. I was slumped in the seat. Once at the hospital my family transferred me to a wheelchair and rushed me into the accident and emergency department. The nurse on duty took one look at me and stated she was not happy that I had not been brought in by ambulance as I appeared to be having a stroke. There was no time for discussion right then because I was not with them. I had totally gone. My vision, hearing and comprehension had gone and I seemed to drift in and out of consciousness. I was rushed through to treatment and hooked up to various machines. While tests were carried out and blood draws taken, I was admitted to stay overnight. My family reluctantly went home. When they returned the next day I was not quite in the state they left me. I was awake and alert. But my face was still a little droopy and a dull headache lingered, but I could talk and the paralysis on the right hand side of my body now felt like pins and needles. I was still a little weak. They were informed by the doctor that I had not had a stroke, but was suspected to have had a TIA, which is a mini stroke. But nothing would be confirmed until the results came back the next day. Tomorrow came and my family were given the news that I had not had a stroke or TIA. The reality of the situation was that I had hemiplegic migraine. I was seen by the specialist and discharged with follow up appointments. Hemiplegic migraine often presents like a stroke. If you see anyone complaining of migraine, don’t think it’s just a headache, think FAST. You might just save someone’s life or stop a serious accident happening because people who suffer don’t get or know the warning signs of an attack. FAST Face is droopyArm weakness (cannot hold above head)Speech is slurredTime to call the emergency service I am lucky not to have had a migraine attack as bad as the first one, although I have had a few bad migraine attacks since. Maybe because I know my triggers I can spot when a migraine is coming and rest. I was scared when the migraine was more severe than normal, as were my family, but I am blessed to have their love and support. Migraine attacks are not just headaches, sometimes they are debilitating.

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Finding my way through this

My brother took his own life October 1st of this year. He was 28. None of us knew and now we all want to know why. There are days I will go through all the stages of grieving in a single day. I’ve started journaling to help get my words out. Is it normal to be annoyed when people tell you if you need to talk they are there, when you can’t verbalize what you want to say? #OurSideOfSuicide

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What I Remember #whatunitesus

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