It has always been extremely difficult for myself to connect with other people. If I happen to connect with someone. The process of maintaining the connection proves to be even more challenging. True connections should come natural but there is always a process in regards to gaining trust in order to fully feel comfortable in most scenarios. Reaching this level with someone takes a great deal of time and patience. Especially when having previous experiences of being hurt. However, nothing seems to ever last and it’s disheartening that in most instances, it all just slowly but surely fades away like nothing ever existed or even mattered. This seems to be a repeated cycle in my life. I have my own issues as well in shutting down and pushing people away which certainly doesn’t help the situation. However, it would be nice to have a few genuine connections in my life that actually last. Sometimes, it’s easier to just keep to myself because feeling alone is where I always end up at some point. I apologize for the ramble, just another evening of random thoughts, thanks for letting me vent.