Hello, my name is Monica and I’ve lived with Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety my entire life. I found this website in hopes to connect with others going through the same thing and to learn more about my illnesses and how to cope. #MajorDepressiveDisorder #GeneralizedAnxiety #ComplexPTSD
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It's all coming down

* This is a long word vomit. I am sorry, but I need this out and my plea for help needs heard. Family just does not get it*

About 5 months ago I took a FMLA break for my mental health from work. My new position along with my recent diagnoses of chronic illnesses was taking its toll on my esteem and work. I put on weight from my new job, was making careless errors, and adjusting to my new normal with meds and rest, and missing my old coworkers from the other shift I was working. After four weeks I was still a mess, and my FMLA was out a week ago. I had to make a decision, and this one was a doosy.
I had to look at my new life and choose weather work could be a part of it anymore. I had been working since I was 14, that's 28 years. I worked full time and carried on getting a masters degree with my husband and three children at home. I have always worked, and when I had to take time off for recovery from surgery I went nuts at the three week mark. Now with my chronic illnesses, depression, and anxiety I must choose. I chose to stay home.
Now I am battling even more. I feel like a failure for not working, I feel worthless because I cannot get out of this, I feel worse cause I gained 40lbs in these 5 months because I cannot motivate to get out of the bed or chair. I feel like I am the worst thing alive because I cannot function like a normal adult should.
My husband says it's ok, my primary doc said take it a little at a time, my psych suggested therapy. Next I am going to my rheumatologist. Last time she harped on the weight I gained from the new job. I'm scared things are going to be worse. I don't want worse, I need better.
My motivation keeps going down each turn. What do you turn to? Does it get better? I'm in a hole and cannot reach the top! I need help.

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I’m new here!

Hi, my name is lilac87. I'm here because I have developed severe anxiety around my work and face because of chronic acne that’s only gotten worse. But this is the first time that these things have lead me to want to just quit my new dream job and hibernate. I know it would destroy my life, and I worked for a decade to get that position. Does anyone with chronic anxiety and ideally acne have words of hope to share?

#MightyTogether #Anxiety

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The worst thing is, I beg him for help with my cats, getting food, even feeding them, or at least giving me money for these things, plus I want to order a couple of hoodies, because it's less cleaning for me when I'm done--that's one thing I use baby wipes and gloves for. I can't give them up when we move, which is why I want to get my own house where I can keep them all. He used to help feed them, take care of them, and seemed to care about them, but he immediately stopped once he legally lost the house. I can't do that. I love them. I want to take them with me. Last time I was there, one of my cats let me pick her up and climbed on my shoulder, just the way she used to when we lived in the house. I cried.

I need to stop being a burden to my boyfriend. Maybe I deserve his snapping, yelling, and criticism, but I can't stand how it feels. I get overwhelmed with all the forms I have to fill out, and get anxious talking to people, asking for help. I say the wrong things. No one understands my OCD or my physical issues. I'm a loser.


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