NCDurhamPhoenix67

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Friend - feeling abandoned

Hello,

I'm new here. I got a friend with I guess BPD tendencies. I've been let down a few times. I was so hurt so I started to Google about being idealised and devalued and fell on BPD. I would love to ask a question to people with BPD about friendships. Is it common to tell good friends they are important, to propose to them to meet up, to call them etc, but then not follow thrue with those plans and suddenly dissapear? I really don't understand those disappearances. They feel to me as silent treatments. And they hurt me a lot.

Kind regards and thanks in advance for answers.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

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I am so lonely and confused and have no one to talk to

I have one child, a 16 year old daughter. She is the center of my world. I love her so much and I do whatever I can to support her and provide whatever she needs. My daughter has bad depression and anxiety. I too, have depression and very bad anxiety. It pains me to see my daughter suffer. Yesterday she flipped out on me and told me all of her problems are my fault because I have been a terrible mother. When she was about three years old I developed an addiction to Oxycodone after back surgery. It went on until she was 10 until I finally got sober. She was always well taken care of but as an addict you can physically be there but mentally you’re not. So she was never abused in any way but I think I did neglect her sometimes (sleeping in bed until noon, getting her to school late). I have a lot of guilt over this and have expressed my guilt to my daughter and asked what she remembers. She’s always said nothing which I knew was not true. Well, now she is having trouble with her friends and she’s extremely unhappy, also bc bc she’s very underweight and doesn’t like the way she looks and she’s tired all the time (I’ve been taking her to the doctor and specialists) and she told me off yesterday that everything is my fault because she had a terrible childhood and that I am a horrible mother. She’s at her dad’s house now and won’t come to see me or talk to me. I am so hurt. Even in my addiction, I always loved her more than I loved myself and I try so hard to make her happy. She has so much anger towards me. I don’t know what to do. She is my life and I am devastated without her. Any suggestions?

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So I was able to overcome my anxiety this morning and talk to a woman that I like, we had a conversation that went well. Sure It wiped me out and I had to lay down after but I'm proud of myself!

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Too much awake

I have been having a hard time sleeping. Last night they put me on 10mg Valium thinking that would work...I have laid awake all night. Mental illness is hard enough on its own and feels impossible without sleep. Feeling very hopeless.
#Depression
#Anxiety
#CPTSD
#Suicide

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When do you know it's time to switch or change your bipolar medication?

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rough day. hitting a lot of dead ends. #Anxiety #Recovery

I’m in the process of trying to find a seasonal camping spot for my camper trailer. This will be a refuge, my home, and where I can continue the next chapters of my healing. I live in an area that has very few winter camping options, and have just secured a job with one of the best employers in the region. I’m usually pretty good about encouraging others, but today I just need a little of that boost in return.

I just want to settle into my home. #imtired #housinginsecurity #realworldproblems #houselessnothomeless

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I already have six mental illness diagnoses. I talked with my psychiatrist this week because I'm frustrated with the overlap of symptoms and trying to understand (so I can better cope) which ones belong to what diagnosis. He started asking me questions about my bipolar symptoms. He ended up asking me the screening questions for borderline. And he determined it is an accurate diagnosis for me. I saw my therapist the next day and asked him about it. He agrees that it fits me. Why am I freaking out? I've accepted all the other diagnoses fairly easily. I have fought this one for years. They keep suggesting BPD and then rule it out. Symptoms have gotten stronger the older I get. I don't want this diagnosis. Isn't that funny? It doesn't change anything, I am who I am with or without the diagnosis. I would love to hear from anyone willing to share with me your reaction to receiving this diagnosis and maybe where you are with it now if you've gotten used to it. Or if you haven't. #CPTSD #ADHD #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Childhoodtrauma #SexualAbuse

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is Jujumermaid. I'm here because I have been experiencing a mental health breakdown on conjunction with my bipolar and today it was confirmed that I am now officially experiencing The Menopause. I am tired of my ways of dealing with depression by eating and hating myself.

#MightyTogether #BipolarDisorder #PTSD

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