PinkSole

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I’m new here!

Hi, my name is joannemc1. I'm worried about how much weed I smoke, and I cannot, I have about 10 joints a day. since I have been doing this I’ve become really sick and have developed Cyclical vomiting syndrome, where I end up unable to eat for days or drink, it’s like a prolonged panic attack, nothings calms me down and I start vomiting and it’s uncontrollable. I should also mention I lost my dad 4 years ago this year, also when it all started happening, I just need help, tips, anything to help me because it’s uncontrollable I can’t keep doing it

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #PanicDisorder #Grief

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Anyone try Ketamine treatments?

This Thursday I have an appointment with a reputable therapy clinic that specializes in mental illness. I’m so excited to start the process because it’s been years and I’m tired of this taking over my life. I have Dialectal Behavioral Thereapy scheduled, but I’m on a waiting list for 6 months. So finding this clinic made me hopeful. At this clinic, they offer ketamine therapy and Transcrainial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS). Along with great therapist that help you take actions in life. I had heard about ketamine therapy for a few years now but kinda thought it was mumbo-jumbo. But after looking into it, I am excited to try this. I found a Reddit post of someone claiming how much Ketamine therapy helped them. I wanted to hear if anyone had tried this. I’m at the point where I’d try just about anything to rid myself of the curse known as BPD. As for the TMS, I’m not familiar with that really either but apparently it helps with depression as well. I realize it takes awhile to rid yourself of symptoms of BPD, but it sounds like this therapy could at least offer relief and a start to recovery. I would like to see if anyone has tried this and how it’s helped them. Or perhaps you hadnt heard of this, and maybe my fellow BPDers could look into as well. 💕

Reddit Post ⬇️
www.reddit.com/r/BPD/comments/7e0nmk/ketamine_iv_has_reduced...

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How do I help a friend realize she may have BPD?

I have a coworker who I've always felt a bond to but didn't really understand why until recently. She goes through bursts of sharing all these personal things with me but then drifts away for long periods. She shifts between a very friendly personality and periods of great hostility and unreasonable demands that really confuse and anger our other coworkers. They are losing patience with her outbursts.

When I started reading about BPD, I thought this fits her so well. The details I know about her life, things she's said about how she thinks, the contradictory behaviors I've seen--all the puzzle pieces make sense now.

But I have struggled with how to share this information with her. She normally seems so happy and well adjusted and I don't want to make her feel attacked or insulted. And when she's been triggered into one of her episodes, I doubt she can think clearly or accept new information.

Does anyone have any ideas on when and how to bring up BPD? I think starting to understand why she does what she does could really help her develop better habits and coping skills.

Thanks!

#BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

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I don't know how to get better (BPD)

I just don't know where to turn and I feel like no one is out there to help me.

I was diagnosed with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) in 2019. I was unable to receive any support as my relationship at the time broke down and I had to move home to another area of London.

In London, if you move to another area of London, you are unable to receive the support you had. Or so I have often been told by Drs.

Since moving, I have been unsuccessful in finding support for therapy or medication. I have once again moved home (Renting in London means you frequently move home) and I am, once again, restarting my process for finding help.

I feel like the whole mental health system is gaslighting me haha! But seriously, I often question if I am making it all up? do I actually feel bad? If no one else see's that I need help, does that mean there is nothing wrong?

I am being on anti-depressants that have not worked for me in the past, even thought it has been established that I should instead be on mood stabilizers.

I have been denied support for Talking Therapy Bromley and Oxleas CMHS in Bromley. I had to Change GP and now they are putting me back to the exact same people who have denied me. It feels like a endless circle of disappointment and rejection. I do not have the privilege of paying for my own therapy.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I spend hour crying and feeling abandoned and rejected. I feel like no one could ever understand how I feel because BPD is wild and my emotions are so intense and strong. I also feel like I'm just not worth the time or effort, and that I deserve the neglect that I am receiving.

I don't know how many times I have called every single helpline available: Mind, Samaritans, 111, 999 etc... but nothing.

If anyone has anything, anything at all that could help me, please let me know. I feel myself deteriorating. I feel more depressed than ever. My panic attacks are returning. My scratching and self harm are getting worse. I am struggling with work. I just don't know what to do.

Please, If anyone can help. I need it.

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6 months waiting list for DBT

My partner and I just moved to a new state and I’ve been really wanting to do DBT. Where we lived before, there wasn’t much to offer there. So moving was great for me in that sense. But nobody can get me in so I’m on a 6 month waiting list. My BPD is getting worse. I’m dealing with infertility at 34 and the depression and the anxiety has spiked worse than it has in years. I was told by a therapist I’m on the low end of the spectrum of BPD. Meaning most my BPD symptoms come out during romantic relationships. So I’ve never been a cutter. But lately, I’ve attempted it. I started with just clawing my wrist to now, I’ve attempted it but haven’t actually done it. I need help and have no one to turn to. Can anyone suggest to me how I can help myself until I can start the DBT therapy. I can’t live like this anymore.

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6 months waiting list for DBT

My partner and I just moved to a new state and I’ve been really wanting to do DBT. Where we lived before, there wasn’t much to offer there. So moving was great for me in that sense. But nobody can get me in so I’m on a 6 month waiting list. My BPD is getting worse. I’m dealing with infertility at 34 and the depression and the anxiety has spiked worse than it has in years. I was told by a therapist I’m on the low end of the spectrum of BPD. Meaning most my BPD symptoms come out during romantic relationships. So I’ve never been a cutter. But lately, I’ve attempted it. I started with just clawing my wrist to now, I’ve attempted it but haven’t actually done it. I need help and have no one to turn to. Can anyone suggest to me how I can help myself until I can start the DBT therapy. I can’t live like this anymore.

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6 months waiting list for DBT

My partner and I just moved to a new state and I’ve been really wanting to do DBT. Where we lived before, there wasn’t much to offer there. So moving was great for me in that sense. But nobody can get me in so I’m on a 6 month waiting list. My BPD is getting worse. I’m dealing with infertility at 34 and the depression and the anxiety has spiked worse than it has in years. I was told by a therapist I’m on the low end of the spectrum of BPD. Meaning most my BPD symptoms come out during romantic relationships. So I’ve never been a cutter. But lately, I’ve attempted it. I started with just clawing my wrist to now, I’ve attempted it but haven’t actually done it. I need help and have no one to turn to. Can anyone suggest to me how I can help myself until I can start the DBT therapy. I can’t live like this anymore.

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Gigi

Negative mindset and self hating

Do any others with BPD have an inner voice that is constantly negative and pretty damn horrible? I can’t seem to figure it out! I am always telling myself that I hate my life, hate this planet, and that I should just be dead! Not only am I wondering if anyone else has this less then charming self loathing and how to stop it without hitting myself over the head with a brick!
Ugh…
Thank you all for any insight or advice.
Seriously no way to spend life in such a way!

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Succes with residential treatment for BPD ?

Has anyone had any luck with a residential program for BPD (usually 4-12 weeks living in a house-like setting under medical care and support)?

My 21 year old BPD daughter is thinking this may be what she needs (after 10 years of nothing working and an incorrect diagnosis of depression/anxiety until this year). Would like comments before she invests the $ and time in it. Thanks.

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