Rebecca Shachtay

Having a difficult time dealing with the pain and having no relief. It’s a waiting game with dr appointments. How do I keep going?

Yesterday I recieved good news. My FND #FunctionalNeurologicalDisorder is very likely treatable, because I've got symptoms less then 1 year. I'm glad that the intake went well, and that the therapist thinks it could work out. But somehow I'm so damn scared at the moment. Not because I could get better from my episodes of not moving my leg. No, it's because I've been sick since 2009, I've have numerous diagnoses #LymeDisease #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain . I've got periodes that I was at my worst, and periods of (physical and mental) therapy, that things became better.
The first time I got sick, I really thought some of my dreams could never come true. Then I got a better period, and I started dreaming again. In the last 12 years I've had this six times, and now I've got no clue what my dreams are anymore. What things are within reach, and other things are beyond my reach. It feels like a rollercoaster, and everytime I start to dream, or start to accept my situation, someone throws a curveball and nothing seems like it used to be.
I'm hoping that it will be alright, that the FND is treatable and I'm scared that it won't. I haven't slept last night, I'm not really hungry (but I ate some food anyway), and just feeling down. Does that even make sense? The therapist had good news.

Is there anyone who relates to this?