my am I so hard on myself. when I am in a group discussion.. I feel a bit anxious to talk and sometimes get angry or sad to that no one is asking me anything or talking to me.. and this happens in one to one conversation too. but when the other person takes initiative to talk, I feel bad about why didn't I start the conversation, why was I rude earlier to that person by not talking. I get happy when people talk to but also feel like why I didn't stand up for myself #mood #selfhelp #selfhelp #MoodDisorders
This Has Been a Horrible Birthday
So I turned forty today. Yippee. It’s 4 in the afternoon, and it’s been a pretty shitty birthday so far. I spent the better part of the day cleaning the house, no one bothered asking to help. My mom and my daughter started fighting with each other, so that was fun. Not. As usual, my mom has been too wrapped up in herself to care about anything else, and my daughter is starting to become the same. I had the audacity to ask my daughter to dust the tv stand. Two hours later, she still hadn’t done it. So, I just did it myself. Whatever. When I was done cleaning, I decided to go take a nap. I ended up crying myself to sleep. I’m feeling awful right now, and wishing I’d never been born. I was hoping 40 was going to be a great year for me. It doesn’t look like it. #CheckInWithMe #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #ChronicPain
What small task is hardest for you to do because of your mental or physical health?
Stop worrying about the things that don’t truly matter