Does anyone else feel guilty for being lazy and staying in bed all day?
I was diagnosed with UC when I was11, Ankylosing Spondylitis at 13,and hemolytic anemia when I was 19, I’m now 22. I’ve also had many episodes of depression and suffer from panic attacks. Since I’ve been sick for the majority of my life, I feel like I’ve learned a lot about myself especially like how resilient and strong I am.
Something I have been dealing with is guilt for not doing as much as I want to. Because of my body constantly attaching itself , I’m tired a lot. I feel like basic things like running errands cause me to become drained. I want to be able to get up early, exercise, run errands, practise my sign language that I’m currently trying to learn, and whatever else I want to , but I’m so tired. I can barely get through two of those things before I feel like I need to lay down for the day. I feel guilt because while I’m not healthy, I’m not on my death bed and I feel like I should be able to do more.
Does anyone else experience guilt for not being able to do all that you want to? Should I be pushing myself to do all that I want to and hope that my body learns to keep up with the pace I’m setting?
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