Elizabeth Flores

@sicklecellmama95
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When will I start believing my therapist?

I saw my therapist again, and I'm starting to realize what he's saying about me needing to start saying no to others so I can focus on my own wellbeing and I know and feel it's true deep down but it's also all I've known. Saying yes and helping others no matter what. it's crazy though because it felt like my late father was in the room because my therapist said the same thing he used to say which was "be selfish sometimes". When will I start taking his advice?

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Which song best reflects your current mood?

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I'm just feeling down today and it upsets me because yesterday I felt okay. I laughed a little with my kids and even had the urge and drive to make lasagna which I haven't made in a long time. Maybe my fiance's right that I'm broken and shattered, I'm just confused by all the ups and downs I feel and the fact that I'm alone makes it worse.

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Was anyone else shocked and ashamed after learning that they had depression after years of wondering what was wrong?

So I was born with sickle cell anemia and aleways had to deal with the pain and embarrassment as a child of having to explain to my peers what's wrong with me all the time, but as I grew up I realized I shouldn't be ashamed, especially after having my girls because there's nothing I can do about it but own it. But over the years I've always felt guilty for being too tired, too short tempered, too emotional or too "lazy", as some people have put it. Recently I have been the worst I've ever been in a really long time to the point where I just don't want to keep going on anymore, I have to force myself to get up and continue my day to day, so I went to go see a therapist as scared and nervous as I was but now that I've been told I have some type of depression, it's made me feel worse and even more guilty when I think about all these years with my babies and how I could have possibly gotten help sooner. And to know that my chronic Illness could also again be a contributing factor to my depression makes me angry because I feel like again it's taking control of my life like it has before.

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Use emojis to tell the story of your week.

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Depression isn't always crying...

Depression isn't always crying...
So many people will never understand this...
Depression wearsany different hats.
Sometimes....

It's laying in bed and draining every last drop out of the snooze button because you just don't want to face the work day.

It's going to bed with a sink full of dirty dishes. You would normally never so this, but you're just so tired and overwhelmed that you chose to go to bed instead.

It's making a mental to-do list of all the things you're going to do after you get home from work, only to get home and be so exhausted that you barely get dinner cooked and lay on the couch afterward instead of doing any of the things you had planned.

It's then saying to yourself that you will just catch up on all that stuff on your day off....only to sleep in and then nap most of that day away.

It's missing out on events with friends, birthday parties, game nights, and anything social, because you'd rather just stay home and avoid people all together.

It's feeling like a horrible friend, and telling yourself so over and over because of above mentioned social anxiety. But you cant seem to overcome it. So you just tell yourself you're an awful friend.

It's wishing you could pour your heart out about how you really feel about certain things, but fearing if anyone knew how you really felt they would judge you.

It's just wanting to vent and get things off your chest, but you don't want to bother anyone with your problems. Plus you've been avoiding ppl, so why should they listen to you now.

It's wanting to just be left alone. Just wanting to sleep. And no one understanding.
And also knowing its not what you really need to do.

It's hating when ppl tell you "smile" or "what do you have to be sad about". Mostly you hate it bc you don't know what you have to be sad about...and wishing that smiling would, in fact, cure your feeling.

It's praying that this medicine will work and you will start to get some of your laughter and energy back.

And then its praying again for a new medicine when the above one didn't help.

It's a spouse or friend asking, "What's wrong" and you can't figure out what to say. They just won't understand why you feel like such a failure. Because you don't quite understand yourself.

It's the struggle with something as simple as a shower. You just don't have the energy to get up and shower. So you have a mental war with yourself, making a list of reasons you should just stay in bed. And usually, in the end, dry shampoo or a ball cap win. And you just tell yourself, you will shower in the morning.

It's going thru the day on autopilot. Just gotta make it thru one more day. Just keep breathing, just keep pushing...

Most people will never understand what depression actually looks like...

#firstpost #Depression #Bipolar #Anxiety

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I feel like I'm stuck or lost and can't find that little light at the end of the tunnel when you know everything's okay. I have two beautiful, funny girls that look up to me but all I want to do is get away from them. I'm scared like I've never been and just want to be the mom I promised to be when they were babies and I first felt a kick in my belly. My brain won't let me think that and my aches and pains prevent that so I don't know if this is all in my head like people tell me or if I'm really lost? #Depression #SCD