Sonnyone

@sonnyone
My name is Grace, and I have been dealing with mental health issues for quite some time. Two issues that have been major difficulties for me is my ADHD and my Depression. Though things get hard sometimes I really try to stay as positive as possible and take my time with things. I think it's very important not to give up (big or small) and instead do something that will make you happier, or better than you already are. I'm trying just like everyone else
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its my birthday and i am depressed

its my birthay today i am 23 years old and its my first birthday as a mom. it feels like any other day and i have no money. my husband is working and nothing was done to celebrate except saying happy birthay. my son is taking a nap and i am just weeping in bed a feel so alone.

we also just moved 4 hours away from everyone i know.

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Did the school system fail you

The school system really failed me, and i want to be heard. I started to fail at reading so they put me in ECL. I am a woman with ADHD, dexlexia, depression and anxiety. I was lost, ashamed, an outsider, outcast, freak, energetic, crazy and special. no one understood me, i struggled HARD in school but worked even harder. I had motivation to succeed so i was seen as fit. i feel as if nobdy ever really cared about my sucess. I was put on a waitlist for learning disability testing and never got it (on the list for 7 years!!) My brother got on the list and got his test a month later with no problems just because he was being rebellious.

Now i am an adult, and i have a child. I feel like i dont acualy know anything. Everything is sooooo hard. I just really dont know what to do. Trying to get tested still, becouse i was not given the same start as others. I may look "normal" i might be able to act "normal" but i am struggling, struggling to do everyday things, work and have relationships. I stuggle everyday. I am a woman with a disability and I deserve support.

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undiagnosed autism

Hey, I know people on here don't diagnose and i know that you should not self diagnose. However, I've felt like i have been living under a mask my whole life, and like dont know how to be myself. I am constantly stoping myself form doing things to seem "normal". I do have ADHD but idk everyone in my family has ADHD and they dont struggle in the same sense as me.

I find life very confusing and starting to get harder to understand what i should be doing with my life and just so much more.

My therapist that i started seeing assumed i had aspergers syndrome. What does that mean lol? How do you just assume that somone has aspergers.#Autism #mask

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undiagnosed autism

Hey, I know people on here don't diagnose and i know that you should not self diagnose. However, I've felt like i have been living under a mask my whole life, and like dont know how to be myself. I am constantly stoping myself form doing things to seem "normal". I do have ADHD but idk everyone in my family has ADHD and they dont struggle in the same sense as me.

I find life very confusing and starting to get harder to understand what i should be doing with my life and just so much more.

My therapist that i started seeing assumed i had aspergers syndrome. What does that mean lol? How do you just assume that somone has aspergers.#Autism #mask

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feeling defeated from my ADHD again....

I have been doing pretty well staying positive until now. maybe i was just ignoring all of my issues for a while. I just find it so difficult to do things that are so easy for others.

I have been trying since the start of augest to figure out my EI, I still am unable to make an account. I just dont undersand these things, they stress me out. and as soon as i get help and people tell me what i need to do, i go home and try to do it and it just does not work.

I have no money.... and i am starting to get really stressed.

I really hate how having an invisible disability can really take a massive toll on your life.

I literally am lost.

I am not stupid, I just cant seem to complete these things.

I cant seem to get the help i need to get this done, especially without feeling like i am being judged.

I am about to have a child, I need to also figure out all the maternity benifits, and child benifits. I cant put everything on my husband to do for me!!!! he has enough to do.

I feel judged or down on myself for having a child if my disability is this bad.

nobody thinks that its this bad.

I've been overlooked my whole life,

because I am a girl?

maybe its becouse i am quite and keep to myself?

The government has failed me my whole life. At this point i feel like just giving up on getting any benifits and just trying to be as cheap as i can to survive.

I wish i was maybe a bit better. Maybe then i could provide a better life for myself and my new family.

#soontobeparent #ADHD #hiddendisability #Anxiety #Depression #Sorry #confusedaboutlife #Procrastination #Disability

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I feel so guilty 😔 sorry for the rant.

Some days are good then there are days like today. I am very pregnant and baby should be here in a few weeks, but I feel so bad for my low moods.
Not getting out of bed, doing my chores, taking care of myself, and just being depressed. Not even these little things but big things too that I've been procrastinating for some time, I feel like I could go on and on about things I need to do. I can't really put it into words... I really just want to be better for my husband and soon to be son 😪. My husband is doing sooo much for me and i just want to be helpful as well, be a team. It hurts so much that my depression is still here and strong.
I feel guilty for feeling this way. And no this is not just hormones... though they probably make things worse.
I made a choice that I want to live a few weeks ago, I am not going to give up. But dang this is hard.
#mamas #Motherhood #ChronicDepression #Suicide #PostpartumDisorders #Pregnancy

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I feel so guilty 😔 sorry for the rant.

Some days are good then there are days like today. I am very pregnant and baby should be here in a few weeks, but I feel so bad for my low moods.
Not getting out of bed, doing my chores, taking care of myself, and just being depressed. Not even these little things but big things too that I've been procrastinating for some time, I feel like I could go on and on about things I need to do. I can't really put it into words... I really just want to be better for my husband and soon to be son 😪. My husband is doing sooo much for me and i just want to be helpful as well, be a team. It hurts so much that my depression is still here and strong.
I feel guilty for feeling this way. And no this is not just hormones... though they probably make things worse.
I made a choice that I want to live a few weeks ago, I am not going to give up. But dang this is hard.
#mamas #Motherhood #ChronicDepression #Suicide #PostpartumDisorders #Pregnancy

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Depression coming back strong after psych stay

It's been a journey lately. Last week I was discharged from the psych ward after almost 2 weeks in there.
I find now my "bad thoughts" have diminished majorly but I still feel numb, and experiencing a lot of anxiety.

Part of this is I think from being around people and having to smile and laugh, it's super tiring. I just want to hide lol.

I am currently with my husband and in laws and they have made soooo many plans for the next few days.

I just wish I could be, and not go to anything or do anything.
#Depresion #Anxity #Pain #fakeit #PsychWard #Suicide

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My mental health during quarantine

Overall all of this has been ridiculous but we've seemed to get this far and seems have not gotten worse yet. Am I supposed to take that as a good sign? Who knows... with being said my anxiety has gone down with circumstances during this period of time. I've also noticed more ambition in me lately... doing writing, playing games, cooking, and other fun activities. My ADHD has also seemed to calm down a bit, by a bit I mean I feel more able to do a task. It's been a ...good .... week I guess you could say. This may be just becouse I have finally started some new anti depressants recently. #ADHD #Depression #COVID19 #ActiveMinds