Medication or Meditation
This will be a different submission than my others. It will be blunt and straightforward. You see…even in my previous posts and submissions and letters…I was still wearing a sort of mask. These last few months I have been acting stronger than I felt.
Just over 3 months ago I did something very foolish. I quit my meds. Cold turkey. Thats never good to do. Especially with SSRI’s and anti-depressants. I did it for two reasons. The first reason was because I didn’t have insurance and couldn’t afford them. The second reason was, to be blunt, I was tired of them. Neither of those were good reasons. It didnt take long for #Anxiety to build and #Depression to climb on my back. It got bad. Within three months I was starting to feel suicidal. I knew early enough that when the thoughts and ideas came I went and saw my primary doctor. I had help paying for it from family. He listened and asked lots of questions. At the end of the appointment he suggested I seek inpatient treatment. I went home to discuss it with my wife. I was honest with her about how I felt, and she agreed with my doctor. So I went to the ER for evaluation and 7(ish) hours later I was on the list for a bed. They called at midnight that night and to inpatient I went.
They decided on meds and I started them the next night. 5 days later, after therapy and meds and group classes I had started to feel a difference. Not better, not all better by a long shot…but a notable difference. I was not suicidal, and my anxiety had gone down. I know my days of round the clock meds didnt fix it…but it made a dent and started to do their job. I went home and am determined to stay on my meds and keep going to therapy. There’s the thing I wanted to talk about: medication. How so very important it can be to a successfull treatment.
Can medication fix how you feel? No. Can it effect how you feel? Yes. You see…mental illness is just that. An illness. A disease that has no cure. And just like other diseases like #Cancer and aids, there are meds to prolong your life. But not cure the diseases. In the case of mental illness it is so very often caused by a chemical inballance. Not always. PTSD, #Schizophrenia and illnesses like that can be caused by trauma. But in the end there are medications that can be taken. Medications that can alter the bain chemicals and push you away from depression and anxiety. Away from the PT-stress and the schizophrenia and the OCD. They can help. Sometimes you will meet people who judge and critique you and tell you “pills aren’t the answer!”Ignore them. Push them away; physically of necessary.
THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH TAKING MEDICATIONS TO LIVE.
Shout it out if you need to. Because its so very true. If you are ill and dying medications are very helpfull. Thats what happens to people with mental illness. Many incurable diseases final symptom is death. mental illness so no exception. The difference is with mental illnesses, it’s by the sufferers own hand. #Suicide has a very negative stigma, because of how those left behind feel. In reality it is an act of desperation after fighting a battle that the person feels like they cannot win. Medication may be able to calm those feelings. And therapy can help as well.
I have been told that I need to trust in faith. That God is the only right answer. That’s ridiculous. God may be an answer, but what gave the doctors talent? Where did the knowledge to make medications come from? Some may say God. Some may say nature or science. No matter what you believe, the plain fact is this: doctors have medications and knowledge and the tools to help you. You only need to ask their help.
Here is the other side of the argument: Non-medicated treatment. This is ok too. It can help with many #MoodDisorders. This includes things such as meditation, calming techniques, deep breathing exercises and more. Many people boast about how well this works and that they no longer need medication. See? The two sides to the coin. Hold on to your hats because I’m going to say something that is about to blow your progressive minds.
Both of these work.
I’ll say it again. Both of these work. There is validity to both. You can medicate AND meditate. In the morning, while I’m drinking my coffee I sit in the quiet and contemplate. I calm my mind. I ready myself for the day. Then I eat breakfast. Not always because I want to but because some of my pills require me to take them with food. After breakfast I take my medications. I do this because they work together. The combination of these things helps keep me grounded and calm.
Ultimately what you can take away from this are two important things: 1)Medications are ok. 2)only you can decide what methods work for you. Seek a doctor, get advice and agree on a treatment you feel will work best for YOU. Remember lota of us have been where you are at. Including myself. I’m on your side. We’re all in this together.